One morning, it’s just quiet

I eventually get used to the eeriness 

Warm sky, cool ocean breeze

It’s not quite what I desired.

Desperation or Curiosity?

Became self doubt, became complacency

I unraveled my terry cloth possibilities

Lie down with me!

Watch the seagulls hover 

In search of joy to  steal

Isn’t this great?

My solace is the reality that only exists in my head.

Smiling or Grimacing? At the sun.

Remember wanting this day to end while also enjoying it

Remember wanting to dig my toes in it just to watch it fall apart

I brought my bucket and shovel and sand sifter

So we can finally have the castle we really wanted.

Why bother? Someone will knock it down.

Broken shells stab my soul.

Broken shells stab my sole.

Keep walking

Right into the crest of my disappointment.

Absorbing the crash

Salty eyes burn.

Uncomfortable. 

I close my eyes and accept it-

Adjust, Settle

Comfortable.