Poetry Blogs (2019, anorexia)
Nicola Beckett on Stay with me (1 hour ago)
Nicola Beckett on Out of reach (2 hours ago)
Till I woke up
then you spoke up
screamingng in my head.
Losing that weight again
with words of encouragement
ignoring the ills of my mind
pushing me back to when "You looked so much better".
Oh no sorry.
You don't want to know
you just want to see
Friday 3rd May 2019 4:05 am
Have you noticed how I’m chewing gum again?
How apples have become my favourite food again?
That I can’t sit down because of the bruises again?
How I replace meals with jogging or writing or playing again?
Have you noticed that I’m drinking coffee again?
Have you noticed me?
I want someone to notice me.
Will you notice me again?
The water is starting to hurt again.
Tuesday 7th August 2018 11:04 am
Hiding behind these thick frames
Shying away from these constant insults
Look down at the floor hoping it would swallow me whole
I look at myself in the mirror and see plain Jane
Back of the class, looking out the window
Nobody to talk to except your book
Every glare, every snide comment
I brush it off like an insect on my shoulder
Cowards check for cuts on my arm...
Sunday 8th July 2018 1:15 pm