We Make Mud
We Make Mud
You pretend
I pretend
We all pretend
That it's all fine
Underneath— angst is brewing
But we try our best
To both appear kind
You pushed
And pushed
And I pushed back
I think that you see white
You think
That I see black
From other planets
But bound by blood
I am the rain—you are the soil
Without intent...
Friday 20th May 2022 6:48 am
Freedom
Freedom
I'm moderately happy
It's easy and stable
But I'm owned— and controlled
I work for them— and not for me
The stability has kept me chained in golden handcuffs— for too long
I can't stay here forever
It's not within my values system
And with the leap I make
The unknown—the risk I choose to take
I embrace freedom
Friday 20th May 2022 6:30 am
Complex Creature
Complex creature
How can someone understand me?
If I cannot understand myself?
I can keep the dark feelings at bay
If I don’t share them with anyone else
People think I have it together
But man, they’ve got it wrong
Maintaining a certain facade
One I’ve kept going— for so long
I’m a complex creature, dear
Made of many things
Not quite sure of who I...
Sunday 15th May 2022 9:04 am
Thank You India
Thank you India
I didn't realise so many people could fit
In such a small place
Apparently it's even crazier in the North
It blows my mind
But I'll believe it
Markets full of incense and flowers
And rainbow dyes to praise deities
Sweets made of sugar cane
Slaughtered chickens
Being packed
On the back of a tiny scooter
Being followed aroun...
Sunday 24th April 2022 10:06 am
Tears
Tears
When I was a kid
At church
A family friend played the violin
And what I heard was both a beautiful and profoundly sad melody
And while the priest passed the holy sacrament to the parishioners
I didn't even realise that I was crying
But I was
Why was no one else crying?
Were they affected by the music in this way?
‘Hey’
My Dad consoled me with his hand...
Monday 18th April 2022 11:03 am
Dear Mama Bear
Dear Mama Bear,
Words cannot describe
The joy that you bring to all our lives
A woman so strong and humble— with endless compassion
A total babe
With a strong sense of fashion
Then add…
Intelligence, creativity and humor
Together— these qualities are hard to find
Our dear darling mama
Is one of a kind
Our rock
Our glue
That wo...
Sunday 10th April 2022 8:46 am
That Poor Man
That poor man
My colleagues only spoke of their annoyance with you
I was told that you were pretty cheeky
(To say the least)
When you were elevated
Grandiosity at its best
Somewhat sleazy
Bragging
And unable to interrupt
The first time I met you—in the hospital
I couldn’t help but find you so damn likable
You socialised with all the other patients
You...
Saturday 2nd April 2022 9:51 am
Where Did The Crazy Acts of Passion Go?
Where Did The crazy Acts of Passion Go?
At age fourteen
Scotty engraved Sarah's name in to his arm
They were not together
They'd never kissed
Or even held hands
Sarah didn't see him
In the way that Scotty saw her
She cared for him as a friend
Bit it didn't change how much Scotty loved her
He told me once— at recess
That the scar on his arm...
Sunday 27th February 2022 7:49 am
Bus Crush
Bus Crush
Oh— how handsome and mysterious you are
So I try to imagine what your story is
While knowing absolutely nothing about you— from afar
What keeps your wheels turning— by day and by night?
How do you move beneath the sheets?
What makes you cry and what gives you delight?
So maybe you are not that cute— but I’m forced to sit still right now…
So day...
Sunday 20th February 2022 8:39 am
Take Me On
Take me on
You think you’re gonna crush me bitch?
Well guess what— I’ve got my boxing gloves on too
You try to intimidate me
But you don’t
I know it’s hard for you to hear this
But I’m just as strong and determined as you
You’ve met your match
I’ll up the ante when I need to
And I’ll dig my heels in
Step up bitch— I’m ...
Sunday 20th February 2022 8:20 am
Beautiful Things
Beautiful things
It takes a second to pause
To be able to realise and see
That no matter where I am
There are beautiful things around me
A dragonfly sits in my crepe myrtle tree
Practically masked
Wings that mimic crystal
A torso that resembles coloured glass
For a second, I don’t know that he is there
Appearing as though he is both flying and sleeping
In mid...
Sunday 6th February 2022 4:31 am
The Tide Is Changing
The Tide is Turning
The news that is broken
When you know someone has to leave
Is hard to hear
But waiting for them to leave
When the news is understood
Is harder
Reminding ourselves that the person who we care about
Is not going on a one way trip to the moon
And knowing we will see them again
Provides some comfort
But does not fully take away the st...
Saturday 29th January 2022 7:44 am
Two Women
Two women
Two women
Both nurses
Who know that while at work
They must joke— rather than cry
As a way to cope
With the chaos
That is their normal day to day
They will talk
Superficially
About plans for the weekend
The weather
And complement each other’s outfits
They are positive encounters
Warm and kind
Congenial
But not with any dept...
Sunday 23rd January 2022 5:13 am
Mend me
Mend me
You’re looking for an answer
Someone to fill that gap
Someone who loves you
Who won’t treat you like crap
And I want it too
Don’t we all
Someone who truly adores us
Despite our baggage and flaws
You said ‘you don’t have the best of me’
And I sadly agree
But I can’t fix you
We need to do that mending ourselves
Can’t you see?
So t...
Saturday 15th January 2022 8:44 am
Covid Blues
Covid Blues
No hugging
No handshakes
Keep your distance
Essential visits only
No more than a group of two
Elbow tap
Foot tab
For the COVID blues
Then chuck your shirt in the wash
And disinfect your shoes
Shelves in shops
Are empty of toilet paper and pasta
Copycats panicked by apocalyptic mania
Buy in excess— and do it faster and faster
...
Sunday 9th January 2022 6:50 am
So she let the rain set in
So she let the rain set in
Alas
When we had nearly given in
Mother nature
Decided she could absolve us from our sins…
So she let the rain set in
Her eyes did not water lightly
Instead— she wept a river
She gave us more than we deserved
More than what we thought—she could deliver
Everlasting daisies and orchids emerged
In abundance— on the once bone-d...
Saturday 25th December 2021 5:16 am
Fire
Fire
Fire.
An element that was historically used for warmth
To cook food
And for protection
And now— our primal instincts are still drawn to the flames
Campfires provide a haven (on our terms)
Where we can sit together—and feel a strong connection
In Australia, we have natural fire
That we usually accept and manage
But this time was different
...Sunday 5th December 2021 7:49 am
Cosmetic Colouration
Cosmetic Colouration
I try to show to you my prettiest feathers
I cock my head up
Can’t you see my confidence
That I’m desperate to portray?
I’m trying to catch your attention
Trying to appear utterly desirable
Yet despite my best attempts
You still won’t look this way
No longer relaxed
Feeling inadequate
And therefore—acting quite grandiose
This...
Thursday 25th November 2021 8:21 am
The Ring
The Ring
No one forced me to be here
And yet— here I am
Time—and time—again
Constantly covered in bruises
Abrasions
Recovering from a broken nose
But— I still want to be here
‘Relax your shoulders’
The coach directs
I’m not even aware
That my arms are tense
Getting in to the ring
Not giving up
Fighting back
Respecting one’s opponent
C...
Sunday 14th November 2021 7:48 am
Beep! Beep! Cheap! Cheap!
Beep! Beep! Cheap! Cheap!
‘Next please’
The woman smiles
But I’m one step ahead
On the other side
Bags open
One hand looped through the handle
The other on the counter
We clock eyes
I submit a creak of a smile back
But I need to stay focused
The race is on
That woman lifting my can of tuna
Is also rearing to go
It wasn’t easy — you know
F...
Sunday 7th November 2021 1:29 am
Goodbye, dear friend
Goodbye, dear friend
As adults we adventured in to the sea
Clumsy
Intimidated
Determined
And having so much fun
No one else was bothered
To learn such a difficult skill
To take the long drive from our town
Just to be in the water for—a day
But you did
And so
Our journey together moved forward
We started in the shallows
And with ti...
Monday 25th October 2021 8:30 am
Moments like this
Moments like this
The endless list of things to do
Are finished!
Well, they’re not
They’ve been abandoned —at least for now
A chance to breathe
As we sit in the sun
Drinking tea
This time— is golden and sacred
The working week ahead will bring
Routine— responsibilities
Time restrictions
And stress
But right now
We have a chance
To...
Saturday 2nd October 2021 3:54 am
My Ocean Dream
My Ocean Dream
Sometimes when life is rough
We cast our mind to a special place
A dream
Where things feel a little more wholesome— with a little less edge
—and things are a little less tough
And this is where I go
Where the sand meets the sea
Where rugged rich formations— are cushioned by giant and lush tropical trees
The sky is blue— the sun smiles
An...
Friday 24th September 2021 10:44 pm
My Sea Change
My sea change
Out of the bush
And in to the sea
Wondering where belonging— belongs for me
From the straight arrow freeway
To a road with a sudden bend
In some ways— it feels like the beginning
In other ways— like it’s the end
I tell everyone that where I’m heading
Involves only a day of driving
To make it sound easy
Six hundred and sixty six k...
Saturday 18th September 2021 10:07 am
Dear Human from ‘The Cat’
Dear Human from ‘The Cat’
Dear overworked, stressed and tired human,
Why do you rush around all day?
Your timetable should revolve
Around eating, sleeping, cuddles and play
Napping for 12-16 hours a day is ideal
Break it up with a snack
Catch a rat
See how good it feels
When it comes to eating
Don’t feel restricted by the diets others suggest
Stick ...
Saturday 11th September 2021 11:03 am
I choose now
I choose now
When I’m well-travelled
When I’m cultured
When I’ve achieved a lot
I’ll look good on paper
And I’ll be on top
When I have credentials— lots of money
My dream career
A house— a husband and
kids…I’ll be set in to gear
And until then...
I’m trying to tick all the ‘achievement’ boxes now
In hope to better aid myself for down the trac...
Saturday 4th September 2021 10:11 am
Waiting to Fly
Waiting to fly
People run to terminals
As best as they can —while dragging heavy bags
Others sleep
Or are zoned in to their screens and books
Like robots
Elevator music playing
Passengers in waiting— tiredly window shopping
With no clear intent or interest
What time is it?
Doesn’t matter—you are in another country anyway
Hungry?
Not sure
So you buy...
Saturday 28th August 2021 9:46 am
Put me on the kitchen counter—please!
A woman— has needs— you know
It’s not just men—who fantasise about sex
I need some proper loving
To put my body into check
I want someone who respects me
Who’ll look deep into my eyes
I want them to understand who I am
And to be smart—and kind
And wise
But the latter is hard to find— you know
And meanwhile— my body aches
So put me on the kitchen counter p...
Saturday 21st August 2021 9:33 am
Forever Blue
Forever blue
Behind a bubble of glass—someone knocks and calls my name
Their voice is muffled
My hearing— dulled from the pain
I guess I’m here
But— not really
This melancholie ache
Means I cannot think clearly
People move with purpose
Their lives seem so together
While I’m stuck down a dark well
That goes on forever
Others say they’ve been t...
Saturday 14th August 2021 11:33 am
Finding My Way
Finding my way
There's a place I need to be
Somewhere I need to go
I need a map—
But the streets are not known
As I sit and look— at that fork in the road
Some direction for my needs— is what I yearn
No one else can tell me what I must do
It’s up to me— where— and how I turn
I close my eyes
And take a deep breath
Without the chatter— and all the nois...
Saturday 7th August 2021 9:00 am
Hope
Hope
Keeping hope
Is like heading upstream without a paddle
Not knowing where the mouth of the river is
Yet mentally deciding to find a way to cope
Its trusting in whatever the future holds
Without having a crystal ball
Its giving something a go
With the risk that we may fall
Hope is believing that the fire won't defeat us
And understanding that healin...
Saturday 31st July 2021 10:31 am
Homesick
Homesick
My heart,
It, yearns— it aches,
Longing— almost begging,
For my other life— far away
My loved ones, the mountain, my familiar surroundings
I want to be able to embrace them,
Take them with me— and never let them go,
But it cannot be so
The cold winters— back in my town,
That I used to find so hard,
Now just remind me
Of the old sun...
Saturday 24th July 2021 9:49 am
My Old Friend
My Old Friend
Hello majestic wonder,
My old friend,
Where do you start
And where do you end?
What secrets do you hold?
And what lessons do you have for us all
Young
And old?
A mighty yet nurturing figure
Who grounds us through and through,
When I am fatigued and feeling stuck
I move my gaze upwards to your leaves
Wondering what you would tell...
Saturday 17th July 2021 9:41 am
My Boy
My Boy
When I first saw his beautiful face
I thought my heart would burst
But that feeling of devotion left me panicked
My worries for the future interspersed
When I had no one to care for with this intensity
I had nothing to lose
The idea of letting him in and then things not working out
Already had me bruised
‘But what if’…
I started
‘He doesn’t bo...
Saturday 10th July 2021 8:16 am
Into the storm
Into the storm
A storm rumbles
Wild wind through your hair
Sweat and rain pouring down your face
Pushing on without a care
Lightening flickers in the grey clouds
Leaves on gum trees blow
No one else is left here
But you know where to go
Feet hitting the pebbles
The air slicing your skin
This beauty and intensity
Is a wicked place to be in
...
Saturday 3rd July 2021 11:35 am
My achilles heel
My achilles heel
I hardly know you
That’s clear to see
And I haven't the slightest idea
Of where you stand with me
Do you feel this too?
Or am I alone
Trying to act cool
While continuously checking my phone
A shot of beautiful poison
Hardly sleeping
Painfully obsessed
Can’t stomach the thought of eating
You’ve crippled me here
You ...
Saturday 26th June 2021 9:10 am
That night
That night
Lizzie and I got ready
As we always would
Make up, hair curled, our cute outfits
Trying to look as pretty as we could
When we arrived, things were fun
Drinking, chatting, laughing
Flirting
The night had only just begun
Weeks ago, we shared some kisses…
And as expected, tonight, I saw you
But no one, including your girlfriend
Had a clue
...Saturday 19th June 2021 10:53 am
Go Go Stop
Go Go Stop
The engines rev
They rev and rev and rev
The tires are balding
The driver is tired
But the engine keeps revving
We must keep going
Don’t listen to your body, take a 'no doz' pill
And keep kicking on
Outside, the world is being left behind
Shapes and colours
Blur
As we keep pushing forward
Forget that you are tired
No time to ...
Wednesday 9th June 2021 2:04 am
My Church
My church
The harsh climate
Yellow grass underfoot
Red rocks
Gumtrees
Salt water
Freshwater
Any body of water
Just take me there
An orchestra of cicadas
Kookaburras laughing hysterically
Such unique and beautiful surroundings are among us
Big cities
Are exciting— beautiful
Rich with culture and history
But they make me tired quickly
...Saturday 5th June 2021 8:48 am
Good Morning Sunshine
Good Morning Sunshine
A ray of light
Warms my body and my heart
A daily reminder
That we are given an opportunity for a fresh start
In times of disconnection
When living can feel like hell
The sun gives us the same message
Of kindness and of strength; for us to be well
Sun beams wash over us
When the fight is hard
A memoir of a greater presence
L...
Saturday 29th May 2021 11:10 am
My pagan blood
My pagan blood
As the seasons change
I am somewhat overwhelmed
And
Overcome
I assumed that everyone felt this this intensely
Around the time of solstice
‘Ah yes’—a friend says to me
‘My mood gets lower when I know that the cold is approaching’
Perhaps they do understand
Still— I ask further with some hesitation ‘do you feel um.. deeply reflec...
Saturday 22nd May 2021 5:59 am
6 reasons why I can’t sleep with Alexandre
6 reasons why I can’t sleep with Alexandre
His dark skin
Those muscles
And tall stature
His broken English
Makes conversations strained
But to me— it doesn’t matter
I want to climb him
Like a deep mahogany
Timber ladder
‘Tell Rasa I’m single’
He said to his housemate— my buddy Amelia
The thought of him on top of me
Made my body tingle
...
Saturday 15th May 2021 9:28 am
Tinder Tango
Tinder Tango
Intelligence curiosity and sensitivity
Move right
Boats and stouts—neck tattoos—tongues out
Move left
Animals and travels
Move right
Backwards caps and toilet selfie snaps
Move left
Not always required is higher education
But the number of rough guys here
Who have not finished school
At least proposes some correlation
Errors ...
Sunday 25th April 2021 8:29 am
Shifting lenses
Shifting lenses
I met a girl called Bree
Another girl who moved on her own to Port Macquarie
Amidst the covid pandemic
At the same time as me
Before Covid, Bree had planned to move back overseas
We both have the travel bug
Then when the pandemic hit
And we could no longer do what we pleased
But if the virus didn’t erupt
Bree and I would have not met
...
Saturday 17th April 2021 9:07 am
Saltwater salvation
Saltwater salvation
I watch the waves turn
With differing force
Here there
And everywhere
My inner monologue— forever going
Pauses for a moment
As the ocean casts its spell upon me
A glittering stream of blue and green— gleaming and glowing
For a moment I wonder
If I should make the choice to be submerged
To stop
And allow my body to feel colder
...Saturday 10th April 2021 10:01 am
I surrender
I surrender
By day we fight
By night we fight
Constantly battling
Trying to stay strong
Trying to keep things right
As the struggle continues
We try not to complain
We take on the suffering
We take on the pain
We know we must continue
As the storm carries on
To pretend we feel tough
When we are truly forlorn
It's true in this journey
...Sunday 4th April 2021 10:06 am
I want to live in a retirement village
I want to live in a retirement village
I want to live in a retirement village
So I can reside in an elderly community
Affordable living, disability access, a garden gnome
And endless opportunity
Oh the dream, to have a little unit
Purpose built for practicality
Close to a park and the local shops
What wonderful amenity
I want my big event of the day
To...
Sunday 28th March 2021 7:34 am
My trauma sees your trauma
My trauma sees your trauma
We are only skin deep
While we don't know the heavy stuff about each other
One stranger to another stranger
To cross that line
Can bring connection
But with that, vulnerability and perceived danger
I want to take that step with you
But I'm afraid of what it might stir up
It may bring us closer together
Albeit, it might just trigge...
Sunday 21st March 2021 8:13 am
Recent Comments
Coralynn Roller on My Little Black Cat
10 hours ago
Carol Congalton on Blossom
12 hours ago
John Coopey on CV (WORK IS JUST A FOUR LETTER WORD)
12 hours ago
Stephen Gospage on Blossom
13 hours ago
Stephen Gospage on CV (WORK IS JUST A FOUR LETTER WORD)
13 hours ago
Stephen Gospage on Enfin
13 hours ago
Stephen Gospage on My Little Black Cat
13 hours ago
julie callaghan on Blossom
19 hours ago
Greg Freeman on CV (WORK IS JUST A FOUR LETTER WORD)
21 hours ago
Kevin Tan on A c🌌sm🌌s of my 🌌wn
1 day ago