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I know I’m frustrated.
I know I’m angry.
I don’t know why.
I know what to do
To try to quell it,
But for one reason
I don’t want to let it go.
I surround myself with
Loud noises and angry voices
Ride a wave of my own
And still I don’t know why,
I just am.
A vigorous scribble scratched
Inside my skull,
No end to pull at.
Friday 18th December 2020 3:56 pm
I twist in the night, in anger.
I wake in the morning, in anger.
I know the dreams are just dreams
but the aching is tangible,
it’s at the forefront that I can’t shake.
It’s too early to feel this way, with holes punctured through the heart.
A feeling that I’ve been used as target practice.
Congratulations, you’ve won…
You’ve robbed me yet again from waking with the deli...
Wednesday 2nd December 2020 4:18 am
Silently I weep
What one sows
Isn't that what they're supposed to reap?
Why do I remain good
Continue to be kind
Try ever so hard to preserve my mind
Karma seems to lack purpose
Or simply ignores the concept of time.
Doesn't my pain matter
My life unrecognizable and tattered
Am I that good at pretendi...
Saturday 5th September 2020 6:21 pm
I am my own
Perfectly made by you…
Seasoned with temper
Peppered with self-loathing
Add a dash of despondency
And there I go…
I am my own worst enemy
Perfectly made into you .
Tuesday 25th August 2020 5:15 pm
Blackened eyes reflect the venom
That burned beneath your veins.
Acrid breaths, defend the lies
Of a life you soiled and stained
Conceited smile to manipulate a fool,
To bend and shatter the goodness.
Masquerading as Hope,
Disguised as love
Defiled the light to sadness
Left stumbling for air
Left needing a heart
Left broken, left consumed, left abandoned...
Monday 17th August 2020 2:38 pm
Nobody knows me,
Not even myself
I meet people everyday
I talk , I laugh , I smile
Others say that I lie.
I’m complicated, orphic
hard to understand
Just like the way we don’t know what happens in between the oceans.
Sunday 26th July 2020 4:34 am
Start a fire.
Steal a caldron.
Select the bones
of a longstanding struggle,
and toss them in.
Season with your spit.
Simmer for twenty-four hours.
Choose a raw nightmare;
a beast threatening all you adore,
a pitch-dark space which whispers.
Chop up the heart of it
and scatter into the mix.
Pour out a pint of good wine.
Half for you. Half for the stew....
Wednesday 22nd July 2020 7:26 am
I’ve got callouses
I’m covered in scars
I’m broken inside
So loving me is hard
You kissed my fingers
My heart pounded so hard
You bathed me in love
And now i can’t get up my guard
It just seems so easy for you
Even after all we’ve been through
You told me you didn’t want to lose me
So how are you being so cold
You washed away the armour that i hold
I wish that this hurt you like i...
Saturday 11th July 2020 7:05 am
In the midst of a pandemic
Your biggest concern happens to be
And yet the bliss of the pandemic
Was not having to hear you
I was wondering when your time would come
To be quite honest I was surprised
You are a little late
Here's your rescinded wedding invitation
Not that we planned it to your taste
It's on this perfectly whit...
Wednesday 8th April 2020 1:11 am
When people ask me how I'm doing I want to tell them the truth.
That my depression is the captor I can not escape from.
That my heart longs for the attention I don't sustain.
That my ears burn waiting for you to tell me you feel the same.
I want to tell you that depression has invited anxiety over.
Yes... that is the third time this week. Thanks for noticing.
Tuesday 11th February 2020 10:23 pm
agile mind dimmed by the drugs
they say shes a dopewhore; she fucks all the plugs
no one to care for her, shes losing her mind
but deep down inside theres a loving soul you'll find
scared of her shadow shes been badly abused
covered in makeup so you cant see that shes bruised
turned to the gang because it was the only thing left
but it wasnt what it seemed full of lies and ful...
Wednesday 15th January 2020 11:42 am
like a regenerating grande
blowing up when my wires are frayed
the time ticks down before my explosion
each timethe flames show my past of corrosion
everything around me is blown away
taking ahold of saint things as prey
"save yourself and leave"
they say ill never change so dont beleive my pleads
so i sit alone in the tragedy of war
my everything in pieces, my heart on ...
Wednesday 15th January 2020 11:03 am
It's all I can do
To sit up and gaze upon your beauty
As you lay there
Your chest rising
Once rugged hair now
glistening and twinkling
As the moonlight catches
And I sigh
You're in so deep now
The streaks of silken hair rise and fall
With every breath
I turn next to your face
Lined with the beauty of age
And I quietly observe
The flare o...
Monday 6th January 2020 9:31 pm