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I used to be happy
I used to smile
But I am broken
It's been this way for awhile
I used to dream big
I used to be strong
Life got in the way
And it didn't take long
Lying in bed
My heart is racing
My mind won't shut off
These thoughts that I'm facing
Maybe they're better off
Without the burden of me
I feel so lost and alone
I can sense th...
Wednesday 11th July 2018 11:42 am
It's been broken so many times
I began to lose pieces that I thought were all mine
I'm in so deep and the void is so empty
So lost for words, but I don't want sympathy
Holding this heart with my bare hands
Please just take it...I don't understand
Time brought these wounds, yet they're not healed
Permanent scars have left them sealed
I'm scared of being alone and s...
Wednesday 11th July 2018 11:34 am
I'm just a broken doll, Unfortunately, no one can see. I was beaten and battered, But no one could have saved me.
It all began when I was alone on the shelf. The cruel world took me and I couldnt cry for help. I sowed my mouth shut and continued to smile. Nobody is coming to help, not for a long while.
I'm just a broken doll, Now everybody knows. Please forgive me for I do not know how your ...
Wednesday 11th July 2018 10:16 am
Drown my cries with your silent screams,
Push my fears away with your shaking hands.
Listen to me with your deafened ears,
Nod and pretend to actually understand.
Hold me down while I continue to fly,
Look at me through your blinded eyes.
Pretend to see the person you want to,
And tell the truth through your broken lies.
Smile at me through your bleeding tears,
Push me down as you ca...
Sunday 17th June 2018 7:54 am
She cried out for help but no one came,
Once again they ignored her cry.
And now thanks to their deafened ears,
She took her life and choose to die.
She was never really heard or seen,
And still not one person cared.
No one though it would end this way,
No one thought that she would dare.
When they heard this girl was dead,
They all search for a face.
But they find is an empty seat,
Saturday 16th June 2018 8:25 am
your toothy grin
is only cotton
trying to blow down this brick
house I have crafted
you were included in the blueprint
until I started changing
and now you're waiting for
an open door
Monday 23rd April 2018 8:33 pm
Who am I to you?
Do you want me to stick around?
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
But you still don't hear a sound.
Hang me from your promises
As I choke on your words.
You said you want me forever
But you cut my heart in thirds.
Where the fuck were you
When I needed you the most?
My world was crashing down
You turned into a ghost.
You left me all alone
And I've been lost he...
Saturday 7th April 2018 1:44 pm
The right type of music
like the right type of doctor
inside you, cutting you open
breaking you apart and
reassembling your thoughts like a puzzle.
Not another world, just another space
seclude yourself from the rest
stare at what you are in that mirror
if you break it, it doesn't matter
stare at all the disappointed faces staring back
feel their fear, and understand...
Friday 30th March 2018 6:34 pm
Baffled, mystified, perplexed and confused,
my darling I have lost my muse,
and at what cost?
Is it worth a tormented soul
just to be kept in your control
I jump when you say
and ask you how high on the way,
every command you convey
I grant wishes in three;
falling down on my knees
to please all your needs
as you stomp on my heart
Drawn and q...
Thursday 8th March 2018 7:26 pm
I seem to look for the beauty in the broken and unfinished, rather than the polish and the shine. I look for a broken heart to fix it, although conflicted in my own mind.
Monday 5th March 2018 9:30 am
A house is built from bricks and glued
Together to create shelter renewed
A skeleton protecting organs hidden inside,
Waiting for a family to live and reside
Seasons pass and storms blow by
Damage accrues despite how hard it tries
To keep flawless and perfect, societies dream
From beauty to beast, becomes unseen
"I am ugly, marred, broken- why bother trying?"
My purpose is futile, my fut...
Tuesday 13th February 2018 8:09 pm
I wrote this piece while I was caring for my identical twin brother, following major surgery. Nearly everything you may have heard about identical twins is true.
The pain of being is not mine, but
my brother's. He cries and howls the Midnight
down into uneasy drowse
as the daylight lifts his covers
over swelling clouds of hurt.
Breaking, I balm him a little,
Sunday 14th January 2018 4:11 am
I asked If I wrote for you would you read it? I asked if I still had love for you would you need It? All I can think about is when we on that dock had our first kiss, Cupid shot that arrow and did not miss, How will I get through this? When you asked me to leave caused all this pain, Every day we have been apart has driven me insane.
Wednesday 10th January 2018 8:20 pm