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BENEATH THE WEIGHT OF THE STORM
I want to get out but the way is shut,
I want to fly but my wings are bleeding,
I want to sing at the top of my lungs but they're punctured,
I want to cry but my eyes are dry,
And the air,
The air is so thin such that I can neither breathe nor gasp,
I desire nothing more than to be free but the clouds are dark,
They threaten to fall,
They whisper of an incoming storm,
A ...
Friday 6th December 2024 7:42 am
FROM THE SINK
Sometimes, you learn to be frugal, humble,and patient,
Sometimes, life beats you down so hard you can't get up,
It shreds you into pieces that take forever to piece back together.
Piece by piece, you glue,
Only to come undone, for your tears are stronger than your will,
Brimming with them, they cut and cut,
Leaving behind an empty and aching heart ,
That only time and hum...
Wednesday 4th December 2024 4:09 pm
Unseen
Shall no one weep
Shall no one cry
Shall no one come to say goodbye?
Not a single tear
Not a voice to hear
Not a stone to say, this is where I lie?
I am music without sound
I am nowhere to be found
I am a leaf that falls to die
I am the periphery of your eye.
Friday 29th November 2024 11:05 am
alone
I have this indescribable need to be heard,
like I’ve never whispered a single word over the course of my life,
like I’ve never uttered an incoherent syllable under the light of the dying sun,
like I’ve never looked into the eyes of another and truly felt seen.
Am I alone?
Am I floating here, lost in the waves of a turbulent sea,
waiting for a lifeboat that will never...
Sunday 24th November 2024 5:40 pm
Forgotten
When we die,
We'll be forgotten,
But what can we say when
We're forgotten
While alive?
What am I to think
When I am invisible?
When I am cast aside?
When I am the problem?
Who is there to see me for me?
Does death then hold no meaning?
Is death even worth fearing?
Or is it rather embraced
As a means of escape
From those who
Don't care
At all?
Thursday 21st November 2024 4:33 pm
Nostalgia
Your nostalgia is lying to you.
Life is hard now,
But it was hard then, too.
You were just younger, dumber, more care-free.
If you knew then what you know now,
Maybe then you'd see.
You'd see the heartache;
You'd see the pain;
You'd see the way they lie and shame;
You'd see that no matter what you do,
You're always going to be you.
Sunday 17th November 2024 4:14 pm
The Breaking Point: The Silent Decent
This poem tries to capture the pain of watching a friend succumb to addiction, bound to a destructive habit that erodes both health and hope. As one friend struggles with the limits of friendship and "agape", the other slips further and further away, lost in a cycle that breaks promises and bodies alike. This poem hopefully serves as both plea and ultimatum—a haunting look at the cost of holding o...
Wednesday 13th November 2024 4:47 pm
Imaginary Friends (Voices in My Head)
Imaginary Friends. (Voices in my Head)
Wow it's 3:00 in the morning and I'm exhausted from all that socialising.
I planned for a quiet night in watching the television, then out of nowhere my friends started materialising.
It's been a while since I had friends I could sit and have a laugh with, I thought this might well give my mood a much-needed lift.
The sofas were full of peopl...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 6:38 am
Am I Just a Crackpot
Am I Just a Crackpot.
I keep searching for an explanation.
Yet I find myself contemplating.
The turmoil in my mind is inflicting.
And. the confusion to me it is subjecting.
I feel my wires need to be reconnected.
So, my sanity can be protected.
A simple understanding is rejected.
Maybe my mind is just defective.
Am I clamouring for answers I cannot find.
...Tuesday 22nd October 2024 7:01 pm
Image
My reflection doesn’t tell my story yet I still feel as though it defines me
When I look,
I see my flaws
I see mistakes
I see problems
Looking at others I see so much beauty
They have the perfect clothes
Perfect hair
Perfect face
Perfect body
Maybe it’s just a facade but it seems so real
Pushed on me is the pe...
Wednesday 11th September 2024 8:07 pm
The Happy Friend
Reading through each page
Experiencing the characters emotions
Putting myself into the protagonist's shoes
Only to realise that I've left out the person who hurts the most
Paging through the book I start to realise
The "happy" friend has always been hurting the most
They have always supported the protagonist, but never themselves
Even though the protagonist is the superhe...
Tuesday 27th August 2024 4:20 pm
Eyes of the storm
Cut me open, bleed me dry
A knife not a tool, a liberator
Their is the forgiving woman with sorrow
Deep in those eyes, to a place
I am oh so unfamiliar with
There are places you know, you see
It is the dark holding our sparks
A flock of deft touches and harmony
Yet the pulse of the thunder rolls over
Sparks scattered, hidden or gone
You will never, never...
Sunday 18th August 2024 11:58 am
Echoes of playtime
Walking around an empty hospital
Hearing voices, standing still
It's a strange feeling
Knowing there's no one on these grounds
Empty beds are blocking
As painful feelings are unlocking
Buried away in their homes
Scarred, anxious and alone
Yet the voices are protruding
Rebounding and allusive
Screams of fun and play come across
From another world now at a ...
Wednesday 10th July 2024 3:32 pm
Did I hit my head or have a fall?
Did I hit my head or have a fall?
Did my heart give out?
Am I under the stars?
Did I make it to heaven?
The memories I have are as strong as an over perked cup of coffee
I can’t forget or let them go
In fear that I’ll feel I’ll have never lived those moments to remember
I try to recreate those memories
I try to relive every moment
But each time I do
I realize it’s not...
Tuesday 18th June 2024 2:19 am
Hidden
I want so badly to just be me
but im scared of rejection
people not accepting me
see do people really accept me
or do they only accept their version of me
am i being my true self or am I playing a false version of me
Do people truly like the real me
or do they only like the parts of me they want to see
Do people really see me
or do they only accept t...
Thursday 13th June 2024 10:51 pm
Peripathetic
Planning away, sometimes all day
Words on a page, moulding like clay
Toward your interest, "I'll engage" you say
I should of known it would go this way
Travelled around all week through
Sometimes I'm spinning and I don't see you
Learnng the lines of a script I have written
Walking the mile but somewhere you're hidden
Delivering is easy when you've got the tools
...Monday 10th June 2024 10:38 am
MiPad
My iPad is thirsty
Well travelled, rugged and dirty
In need of a clean
And with its blue squidgy exterior
It's a sight to be seen
You are brave
Going places where no iPad has gone before
Where young people fight and snore
High care can be dangerous for all
But my blue squidgy friend
You will be there till the end
Stimulating and engaging
Its you they're i...
Wednesday 5th June 2024 3:04 pm
Grey Day
Well he's definitely very angry today
He's gone and taken the world's colour away
Left me with only white, black and grey
Nothing, nada, no red, blue, yellow or green
No trace of them, gone! nowhere to be seen.
Vibrant pink, warm orange and vermillion
There nothing left now in this colourless prison
So how to describe the earth's serene face
The tree's and the flowers and wide open space
...
Friday 10th May 2024 12:14 am
Always with you
I am here, connected to you
Hiding in the corner
Growing darker as the light grows stronger
Formed shape, cajoined to you
I follow you in the street or lane
Looming dark in mirrored form, defined
Ever present, twinned by shape
Creeping on the floor or wall, a mirror of your soul
Ever here, your silent brother
Shaped in your darkest desires
My friend, your friend, a soundless mus...
Saturday 4th May 2024 10:43 am
Post Traumatic Civilian
There's no stars out in this darkened sky.
As a curl up, on the hard floor to lie
I cannot lay safe, cozied on this soft bed.
Not with the noises and memories floating in my damn head.
The cracks and the bangs that rang out in the night.
Times I saw many men fall, disappear out of sight.
Was that today, yesterday, or maybe tomorrow?
No bravery left here there's only raw sorrow.
The noise...
Tuesday 30th April 2024 5:26 pm
Angels Call
At a loss to know what happened, I did not see you fall
I wasn't there, I didn't see when Angels came to call
A world without, memories now is all I see
I leave you now, to say your own soliloquy.....
This is could be my own exposition,
Bills, money, world events, my own loneliness decision
People all around me but I'm hiding the pain
Physical illness or mental strife is all that I gain
...
Tuesday 16th April 2024 2:20 pm
Homeless
I'm tired and cold, rags gathered tight, so show me some pity
It's been to long out in this cardboard city
Food gathered and begged, no chance of meds, while you stay warm in luxury beds
A doorway, a tunnel, a railway station
A look of disgust from most of the nation
I didn't ask to be ousted from a normal life
To be fed to the streets in toil and stife
Clothes dishevelled, ripped and most...
Sunday 14th April 2024 8:51 pm
The Lighthouse Keeper's Lament
In the depths of my soul, a battle rages
Between the light and the dark, not written on pages
Deception creeps in, a constant war within
Yet I find strength to help, to heal, to even win
I lead and mentor with doubt in my heart
An imposter's mask, a master of art
Carrying others' weight, ignoring my own
At what cost, I wonder, am I overthrown?
But still, I stand tall like a lighthous...
Sunday 14th April 2024 6:55 pm
chronic pain
i'm sick of doing the best i can
because it isn't ever enough
if I can't be good,
what's the point of being here at all?
I never sleep well anymore
even though I tell the doctors I sleep fine
I just stare at the ceiling
and live through the lives of others
sit in class with an ache behind my eyes
I can't even tell if the pain is real
excedrin can only do so much
and I think my toler...
Thursday 14th March 2024 1:25 pm
Dry relapse with no high(through the eyes of another)
I'm not a soldier but I'm at war
Clean and sober year number four
Battles with temptation
Past friends and relations
Conflict miscommunication
I get tired of waiting I'm tryna be patient
Testing my patience
What's expected of me isn't me
No point trying to change me you see
That change must only come from me
People are not what they seem
Reality looks dif...
Monday 4th March 2024 12:32 am
1000 MILES IN 2024
They said, no!
no, you can’t!
just shut up,
go away;
they said
what they
always say,
too old,
too fat,
waste of space,
a pisspot,
a fantasist,
say voices
in my head.
I've told them,
piss off,
the first step’s
to take one,
so I took one,
I planned,
If you do not
you plan to fail,
so I got all my kit,
warm leggings
and mi...
Sunday 4th February 2024 9:01 pm
Support worker
Hoody, vape and tatt
All night I've been sat
Another coffee will wake me up
Here's a magazine, take my cup
Alone on the ward, feeling bored
My eyes crush a matchstick hoard
Marks and scuffs on the walls
Remind me of times, restraints and all
Long days and nights settle in my thoughts
Old faces, names, and incidences haunt
Decisions made, young people blamed
...Wednesday 24th January 2024 10:12 am
Strike up
Savouring the solace
Subverting the scene
A spectre on the surf
Sublime and serene
Suffering the silence
Shaping the sun
Scuppering the smog
So sane with someone
Staffing submerged
Sheepish and surged
Scared as the scurried scatter
Splurged and so shattered
Shanked and superfluous
Serious and stained
So sad to see
Striking...
Wednesday 24th January 2024 10:02 am
Acknowledge me
It reaches further than "please fuck me" or "don’t touch me"
It’s a liminal in-between
A line we like to call blurry
But I never asked you to undress me
My body abandoned me
My words went slurry
Tongue too thick to go beyond a mumble
Kind sir escorted me to save me from stumble
Four times play on my mind
One of them I even forgot
Until it accosted me during a usual d...
Friday 12th January 2024 5:07 pm
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