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Metaphysical Developmental Progress
in disbelief, often until unconscious
- a slow release, from...
Saturday 16th December 2023 4:46 pm
Broken Record's Repetition
For me,
Please,
Stop cutting.
I said.
A broken record.
Only now,
As she lays in the grave,
Six feet under.
I wonder
if things would have changed,
If I just once asked her to
Stop cutting,
Please,
For you.
Would it have made a difference, though?
The reason to cut or not remains
the same, either way.
Nothing can change that here
She...
Thursday 19th October 2023 10:16 pm
Wrestled to girl
I wrestled you down
Girl
Into woman
I grew your thoughts for you
Lifeless of the party
Monotone
You vacuum expression
And drain me,
Exhausted
Stop
I gave you emotions
Give me energy
Any kind just give
Give and give
I must drink
Always thirsty am I
But I drink for you
So what’s this lull in your throat
Dip in your tone
Crack?
No
You ...
Friday 13th October 2023 4:26 pm
Enough
If only I could go back in time
To rectify all my mistakes.
All that I shouldn’t have said,
Yet still felt the need to say.
Why did I even feel that need?
I, too, was just a child, right?
Be the example,
Show them they are wrong.
Show them we are no beasts.
Show them we can be equal.
Act mature,
Be mature.
Show them they are wrong.
So many rules and rest...
Friday 22nd September 2023 7:07 pm
Anger's Embrace
Anger curls its tendrils around me,
it envelopes me whole,
strokes me tenderly.
It forms an impenetrable wall,
a shield of sorts,
to keeps me safe and sound.
It takes all those blows
and hits for me,
protects me from my foes.
Rage filled screams,
cover the sound of falling tears.
Sadness sits beside me,
gently wipes my sea.
Anger extinguishes my fear,
...Monday 11th September 2023 8:55 pm
A Living Corpse
At age three
I dreamed.
Of lands full of sweets.
Of an endless coloured street,
stretched as far as I could see.
I dreamed of my toys,
that entertained me with their noise.
I dreamed of everything and more.
I dreamed.
At age ten,
I heard.
About wondrous lands that decorated the earth.
Of all the plants and birds,
our Mother gave birth to.
I heard abo...
Tuesday 27th June 2023 6:53 pm
The Devil's Face (Resembles Me?)
The devil has always been,
A faceless entity
To me.
Until now at least.
Now it has become clear.
I can see.
The devil
In front of me.
They are no singular person.
Instead a pair.
Familiar sight.
Lungs devoid of air.
The devils gaze at me.
Recognizable set eyes.
No surprise.
Why is this reality?
First sight of a child.
Encounter...
Tuesday 13th June 2023 8:24 am
Phantom Hands
Grief casts complex shadows
over the wilting body
You feel the fingers grasping
as sirens rise again
This fatalistic ritual
an energy made negative
and stomach knotted up
by such unhelpful thoughts
Pain rips at your sails
thunderous and wild
is it the body breaking down
a message poorly translated
The shrieking of absence
cuts deep into the gut
those hands twist and grip
the cycle...
Thursday 1st June 2023 4:40 pm
Bitter Beer
I used to utter your name delicately
like it was poetry.
Just as how perfume lingers on a person,
The sweet smell of cherry blossoms
accompanied your name
whenever it walked out my mouth.
But now all it leaves,
Is a taste so foul.
Your love was like alcohol to me,
It left me feeling euphoric at first,
But after the effect had worn out,
All I was left with w...
Monday 29th May 2023 12:52 pm
My Last Act
I pick up the shards of glass
that are scattered on the ground.
I marvel at them in wonderment,
how beautiful it once was.
Still, it'll serve a good cause.
Such a pity,
won't you applaud?
This is the end of the show,
Don't you hear the crows?
Toss your roses
Or will you wait till my eyes are closed?
Pour the alcohol,
Let the bubbles float to the surface.
Dr...
Sunday 28th May 2023 5:01 pm
Words Hidden Beneath Ink
A delicate touch on my skin.
How long has it been
since someone softly caressed me?
A touch so unknown,
yet Comfort finds their home.
As you trace the ink on my skin,
your eyes rake down my body,
drinking all of me in,
as if you have not drunk a drop of water
for as long as you’ve been.
Your fingers on me,
feel like the first sunbeams that grace a leaf,
after a...
Tuesday 23rd May 2023 12:02 pm
Sweet Sorrow
I will hurt you,
Just as you will hurt me.
Isn't that beautiful?
To hurt
And be hurt.
To love
And be loved.
Isn't loving someone,
Sentencing yourself to pain?
Then, why pray,
Do all still love?
To hurt and be hurt,
Is to love and be loved.
I long for you to hurt me,
So I don't doubt my love for you.
I long for me to hurt you,
So I don't doubt your lo...
Monday 8th May 2023 4:36 pm
Empty Chairs
Just a second is all it would take for you to leave this table.
It never gets better, seeing the amount of empty chairs grow.
Still, I remain seated at the table, glued to my chair.
Unable to do anything but watch with pain in my heart,
as yet another one leaves me alone here.
But what can I do?
Even an iceberg desperately yearns for warmth,
climbing to the sun, knowing it wi...
Monday 24th April 2023 12:02 pm
Wounds of liberation
Imagine being totally untethered
After feeling chain linked
I feel split
That part removed
That half is trying to renew
But it hurts
To grow scab over wound
Missing you is mourning you
Leaving you is still losing you
And I’m just as lost
As I made you
If it could be
I would make it be
Should I be chain linked again
I would make it good
Should ...
Monday 27th March 2023 3:24 pm
Mercy
People often say that God is merciful.
Then why is it that every night, every day, every waking hour of mine,
I keep reciting the same prayer?
‘Have mercy, my Lord, and put this subject of yours out of their misery’.
If God is so merciful, then why is it that I still find myself breathing?
Exhaling every breath, hoping this one will be my last.
Why is it that I find myself all t...
Tuesday 21st March 2023 10:10 am
I Love Myself (Unfortunately)
I love myself.
Not in the way one would think.
I truly am in love with myself.
For there is no one in this whole wide world
That could understand me,
See me,
Hear me,
Apart from me.
Therefore it is only myself that I can love
And it is only myself that can love I,
Whose song differs from the other whales.
I love myself.
Not out of free will,
But out of...
Sunday 5th March 2023 10:31 am
Leverage
I’ve peeled off my skin for you
I’ve let you crunch my bones,
Consume beyond my flesh
Beyond my visceral tissues
Beyond my beating heart
Beyond the fibres of my being
Down to my soul
I’ve let you gobble up my spirit
I’ve let you slurp up my mind
Lick the lasting crumbs
of my emotions
Everything in me
Everything making me, me
All that constructs me
All...
Monday 27th February 2023 6:22 pm
Me Minus Pain
I don't know what is right or wrong
I don't understand the way of this world
I can only feel the constant pain
Tears flowing from my eyes
Frequent pain became a
Constant Reminder that I'm not meant
To be loved or to love
So many ways for a heart to get broken
So many hurts and unfulfilled expectations
I want to be free of this pain
I want to be able to prick my heart with a needle yet ...
Wednesday 15th February 2023 12:15 am
Poetry prequels pain
Poetry comes to me
In bits
and pieces
I write it
On a paper
All those
random lines
Which look like
Prequel plots
of
A hurt
not yet felt
I keep losing
this paper
Just like how I
Keep losing the
Thoughts of you
And of
you and me
Confusing
my heart
So I get to
postpone
the hurt--
Tuesday 14th February 2023 4:40 am
Home Interior
‘’See you tomorrow’’,
that was what you said.
Back then, I could not identify it as a lie.
I only realized when I got to your house the next day,
your hanging frame decorating the place.
Thursday 9th February 2023 2:51 pm
Smitten (A Sonnet)
He was smitten with love for her;
by that arrow deep and sure.
A gooey warmth between them;
filling the heart all within.
But, love's shaft festered, stinking foul;
to gangrenous, aching howl.
Through steamy glass his love moaned;
as he stood outside alone.
Those barbs cannot be reversed;
holding fast in a soul feeling cursed.
Longing for the lost one gone,
to the breast of a differ...
Saturday 21st January 2023 2:49 pm
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