Nicola Beckett on d.knape
11 hours ago
What it is that makes me love you,
in this inexplicable connection,
that while you sleep I would abduct your heart?
What it is that makes me love you?
Without offering anything, only these nights of memories,
you to enter into my body silently,
reincarnated in the monologue of my dreams
I would die for a kiss from you, if necessary...
a kiss on the tenuous thread of dawn,
Friday 31st January 2020 5:55 pm
and dark clouds invade
raindrops fall at the
rain soaked feet..
The umbrella of friendship
tattered with holes
refuse to protect me today..
Thoughts run back
to another dark night,
where it rained as fiercely as now..
Yes, I was soaked, that day too
not from the umbrella- yet not tattered-
but from trying to protect a friend
from the cascading rain..
Friday 31st January 2020 2:38 pm
I made a decision that was hard
To let you go
To let you fly
God told me don’t worry she’ll be fine
God told me ,“ Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I cried and yelled and couldn’t accept it
His voice was clearer his voice was loud
He said one more time, “Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I finally understood I needed to stop being selfish
Wednesday 29th January 2020 11:35 am
"God, God!" I yelled and cried.
God why have you abandoned me.
I drank to see if the pain would go away.
"God!," I said I still feel hurt
I still feel pain!
Then I finally gave up and cried for days and saw nothing but darkness
Then a voice came and said, " Get up, don't give up, put on your shield, put on your armour!"
The voice was mad the voice was hurt the voice was comman...
Tuesday 28th January 2020 9:56 pm
The words you said made me realize it's all done
I cried, yelled, and wallowed in self pity
Then I showered
Did my hair
Put on clothes and said , "That is it girl get it together!"
I said, " That is it girl look at that mirror!"
You are BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, and SMART
I said , "I love me!"
"I love me!"
Tuesday 28th January 2020 9:47 pm
I really wish I went to college
I can’t believe I trusted that bitch
But was it love or just a lack of knowledge
Shit hurt my heart seeing my big brother
Cuff a bitch that had mileage
He went to jail, she told him I tried to fuck ha
Ian even have no money
So ion even know why the butch was lying
Niggas buy anything a bitch tell em when they in jail
But damn big Jevo Ian even have ...
Tuesday 28th January 2020 3:37 pm
I forgot how much I loved to write
I forgot how much I love me
I forgot how much it hurt to be alone
Yet, to know that you are free
I forgot how much I love to sing
To feel the warm sun on my skin
I forgot to be me
I forgot how to smile
But today that all changed
Today I remembered...
I remembered it no longer us
It's no longer you and me
Now its me!
Monday 27th January 2020 9:58 pm
No one could come close to you in my eyes it's you
I think about you constantly, with out you life is blue
you tease sometimes you hurt my feelings, I cry
Yet with out you I would curl up and just die
you are my everything, my love, my man yes you
I could walk away from anything except you, my glue
Friday 24th January 2020 11:41 pm
All these years
I put too much into the hopes
Of finding someone who will give me all things I want,
All things I need
Give me music
Give me poetry
Give me love
Give me everything I need
But the voice inside keeps on,
No one can love you like you need
No one is all things true
No one out there is all for you
No one can be all you need
You give ...
Friday 24th January 2020 3:00 pm
my self it calls itself as such
making way alone, untouched
just fleeting joy when she creates
predictable, a single's fate
then my other comes, falters on fissures
languidly warms, fulfills heart's wishes
yet seeping comfort into space
where always open, felt nothing save
now pricks with pain at such expanse
for place to love must be enhanced
Friday 24th January 2020 2:09 pm
The rain falls
My soul weeps
All the secrets that we keep
Thursday 23rd January 2020 5:02 am
She woke up dead, yes dead in her heart
She thought they would never ever part
The Wicked man of stone ruined her life
Why did he ask her to be his wife
He knew he already had one tucked away
She tries to cry but she woke up dead today
A bigamist and a sweet girl of twenty three
Signs where there she just didn't want to see
Three week into the marriage a knock on the door
Tuesday 21st January 2020 11:24 pm
Last night as I lay thinking, you sneaked into my head
I tried to turn you off from thoughts, but you stayed instead
you made me remember valentines nights from long ago
Me and you out for the night, kissing dancing slow
I remembered how you said you loved me, and I you
Then came the laughter and the places that we knew
making love was easy that was before the war
then out came a sid...
Tuesday 21st January 2020 11:09 pm
Its All Gone - Poem by Marie
There was a time when she lay on the settee legs slightly parted it turned him on
Now at fifty two it does nothing, her magnetic sex appeals gone
There was a time she would look in the mirror and see a sex goddess
Those day are Dead her beauty no more a subject to address
There was a time when wolf whistles made her blush when out in the street
The world ...
Tuesday 21st January 2020 10:57 pm
Monday 20th January 2020 11:34 pm
You called out to me
said you wanted me
felt for me
as I started to feel for you, too
It could be so easy
just as 1-2-3
maybe in another lifetime
I’d be with you, too
Maybe we don’t have to wait
you’ve got me now
you’ve got me here with you
I’d love you just the same
It could be so easy
just as 1-2-3
if it were another lifetime
I’d be wit...
Saturday 18th January 2020 6:24 am
Some days there is not enough
chocolate or booze
to chase away the blues
or stop torrential thoughts of love
gone too soon.
What's a lonely girl to do.
The only thing that eases the pain
is music from silent words
thought to be penned in vain.
Friday 17th January 2020 3:23 am
Friday 17th January 2020 12:43 am
my brain was a savage
and im sorry i let so many undeserving hands ravage your fragile parts
i didnt think you were worth enough, so thats why i continued to pick and prod, my judgement was tough
im sorry i ripped you to pieces
but now im learning to love all of your creases
with every burise, cut, and scar youre beautiful thin or large
ive learned to keep you close on your worst...
Wednesday 15th January 2020 10:04 am
I am telling the crystal clear water
I am truly sorry…
If I’d have known
You were there
(waiting for me)
I would never have hurt
A speck of me
Instead I folded…
Under the city’s walls
And people jampacked
With yesterday’s worries
And the future foreboding
If I had known…
I would be sitting with you, now
I would have waited,
Till the ripples of life
Brought me here...
Monday 13th January 2020 7:05 am
Over and over,
I see your name
like a tattoo
on my brain.
not on deed or fame,
but simply a name.
A tag, reminding us
who we are:
who despite living
an alternate reality,
believes in passion,
love, happily ever after...
Sunday 12th January 2020 9:00 pm
Passion is carefree, often buoyant.....breezy,
and is absolved perpetually of prohibitory rationality.
Being logged in to it for a little over eternity,
this is exactly how I have felt:
...maybe a bit frenzied.
Passion is also a sudden, swift salvo.
On many a fleeting occasion, ergo;
I have come perilously close
to suggesting my maudlin ardor
and poetically propose
Thursday 9th January 2020 11:49 pm
Is it still love when the cracks fill with lies?
And you know that you shouldn't crave their presence,
But they make you feel alive.
Is it still love when you long to break away?
But the notion of their absence compelles you to stay.
Is it still love when you try to forget?
But nothing will fill the void that they left.
Thursday 9th January 2020 10:21 pm
You disappeared without a trace.
For years I didn’t see your face.
I believed the lies,
that you died.
Maybe you did,
on the inside.
Your essence never went away.
Behind me, beside me, within me
night and day.
You haunt me.
That’s the way I want it to be.
Love is a mystery.
Tuesday 7th January 2020 1:58 pm
everything that breaks
just enough to make me want to write about it
keeps me up for hours past midnight
hours beyond the flickering street lamps would like to stay lit
how long will you guide the stray
i like words
i like the way they fall on paper
it’s usually tears and aches near the chest
that build a home for my words gone lost
Tuesday 7th January 2020 7:20 am
I miss you
I miss your overwhelming, overriding knowledge
Your greater wisdom,
I miss you
I miss the way you make me feel dumb and special all at once,
And unworthy and unworldly
And not enough.
I miss you
Not enough years or experience
Not a deep enough depression
Not a bad enough time.
A broken back was nothing compared to your plight
A gun against t...
Monday 6th January 2020 4:32 pm
Bandages ripped off
not sure where this goes
You know too much
can’t hide it anymore
you want more than to touch
the deepest parts of me
I’m falling deeper into you
where do we go
what do we do
when I just want to be close to you
Monday 6th January 2020 2:51 pm
i was cotton yesterday
see, i thought you were my magnet
Sunday 5th January 2020 6:30 am
I used to think it would be an honor
to usher in a thousand years of peace,
a willing martyr to stop senseless suffering,
but I had no idea of the atrocities
that would ensue between men,
or the loss of innocent children
that we would witness with despair
Come now Lord, end the madness,
flood evil with love,
make our planet a peaceful place,
before all hope i...
Saturday 4th January 2020 1:13 am
softly breaking into you;
consumingly giving to you:
Friday 3rd January 2020 10:15 pm
Worst thing about New Year’s Eve,
being a romantic
but no one to love you the way you need
I’m holding back the urge to walk away
I’m holding onto responsibilities,
accepting my fate
Oh, will you please think of me
when you’re kissing your lover
send your positive vibes,
your good thoughts,
your shout outs,
send me a love I’d not want to live without
Wednesday 1st January 2020 2:53 am