Rudyard Kooistra on
3 hours ago
i am nothing.
i could never compare
according to you.
i could never compare
to autism and down syndrome jokes
according to you.
my love for you
the fact that you're my best friend
the things you've help...
Sunday 19th November 2017 1:18 am
There is no secret, there is no hurt,
Pure friendship does not ever curt.
Little there is to tell, little there is to ask,
Pure friendship forever lasts.
Sheer trust and belief, sacrifice in times of need,
Pure friendship does not ever show greed.
Utter confidence, no reason for a protest,
Pure friendship does not need confess.
Big dreams, utter faith,
Pure friendship al...
Friday 10th November 2017 8:48 am
If ever I had to leave you behind
I just ask that you visit my shrine.
Always know that you can come to me, teary eyed; But only with tears of joy.
Tell me only of the happiest things,
Of all the moments that I have sadly missed.
Come to me bare, skin on skin, completely naked, share the things you cannot share with others.
All your secrets forever cherished in my buried embrace.
Monday 23rd October 2017 12:04 am
The Clearing Inspired by a dream I had as confirmation of My commitment to remain in the darkness with my friend as long as need be. I hear the screams of centuries falling Compassion, tumbling…down Values, landing…loudly Chainsaws…cutting… Right through our very hearts, Trucks dragging… Lifeless… Humanity… I tear through the thick of it Struggling to stay on my feet Terrified I run…I run, B...
Friday 22nd September 2017 7:36 pm
Words, the only thing that connects me to you
Through words I figured out the things that you do
Words you want to say to the girls that you loved that are too good to be true
Words that I read just like the lyrics of my favorite songs
I figured their is a list of the girls in your heart
You fall too easy something that is common with my heart
I don't know how many times I hoped for an us
Monday 11th September 2017 2:44 pm
Six months, ten days have passed Yet nothing has changed
Time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains Tears constant
Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride Not one you enjoy…
But the dreaded kind… Where every uncertain second So unkind
One day bearable… The next, a bottomless pit…
Falling, Anger overwhelming Emptiness always …
Sunday 10th September 2017 11:51 am
My friend hurts and there's nothing I can do. Time stood still for you… and I was sleeping Forgiving me is not in my scheme of things. Your world crumbled … I was not there. Through silly vibrations I awoke to a world so different…. So sad….so silent and empty. The news come and I SCREAM your name wishing… the loudness would shatter this nightmare But I am awake and it’s not a dream, “you lost you...
Monday 28th August 2017 9:07 pm
My friends’ son died! There I said it! He didn’t pass away or go home or any of the hundreds of euphemisms that people choose to use, he died, he’s gone and he is never coming back! 353 days,50 Wednesdays after the fact and all still seem so unreal. There is not a day that passes that I wake up and not think…how can this be? How could this happen to her? I cannot stand that she is experiencing t...
Saturday 12th August 2017 7:39 pm
Silent stood time,
when you came to mind.
Pure delight it sought,
in each and every thought.
Talks of ours will be cherished,
for I will never let it go perished.
Admiring our words with such amaze,
laughing about our selves like craze.
Cheered each other all the while,
till we got back our forgotten smile.
Became friends unnoticed by all,
cocooned our hearts with a pious love shawl.
Monday 31st July 2017 12:59 am
She is 17 years old,
How many dog years is that?
She is grey around the muzzle.
Very little body fat.
Chicken carcass fills her skin,
So fragile and so weak.
Blind blue opaque eye,
Her temperament so meek.
She sleeps stretched out,
Small brittle arthritic bone.
She twitches as she sleeps,
Time left now is life on loan.
She sleeps so soundly,
this warm summer...
Monday 19th June 2017 3:25 pm
I think life should be about caring, loving and trusting.
We should follow a life where we give what we can to others.
Not money but love, faith and understanding.
When friends are in their dark space we would shine out our torch of hope,
Provide an ear to help them cope.
Listen when they talk,
take time not to judge.
We should be better at listening,
Not pushing our views.
Friday 9th June 2017 9:27 am
They lived their lives not too far apart
Both in age as well as distance
Born to families true and strong
Their days where filled with laughter
For him she was the sister he never had, he just forgot to tell her
At 21 they left their homes to make their way and somehow their contact faltered
Then one evening after a concert pure with joy
In a crowded station she spotted his f...
Saturday 13th May 2017 8:11 pm
"Like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in..."
I sing heavily alone in our house,
carrying the weight of our dead
friendship in my voice,
hopelessly waiting for a familiar hug,
a touch of warmth to lighten
the evergrowing darkness in my mind.
I can still feel the love in our captured memories,
hear the leaves rustle with a deafening reminder
of the time I forgot how to spe...
Friday 12th May 2017 5:19 am
Death brings us closer #25
The only connection I truly had with this young man was the darkness that beholds us both,
He could speak with such talent and such words, you would think it was a bible oath,
This young, charming and daring man was a fighter,
However, all fights but come to an end,
In his case, it was the end, however, I will remember this, and I will defend,
Friday 28th April 2017 3:43 pm
What are we, friend or lover,
I feel so far from you, not knowing if we are together,
You said when we got together it would be forever,
Forever is cut short, as you know you can't be faithful, not at all,
You would prefer to ask for attention of a guy you don’t know,
Instead of getting the affection of your lover you act towards him, as you’re a foe.
Are you my friend or lo...
Wednesday 5th April 2017 1:44 pm
You have proven to be my biggest ally, knowing
Me better than anyone else.
Shaping my thoughts into the paper canvas, opening
A door for them to see into my world.
Grateful I am for your help, lost
I would be without you.
Thank-you for being by my side, and
For encouraging me to never give up.
My dearest friend, my
Monday 6th February 2017 7:19 am
The deepest love does not rest
In just lips or eyes
Or kisses or caress
Carried in gentleness
Across the wind,
But rather an emotion
That hangs on your thoughts
Whether across meadows
Bathed in frozen dew
Or listening to raindrops
Developing slowly over time
Like a detective novel
Opening up in soft layers
Until the meaning stares you
Straight in the face
Across borrowed harbo...
Thursday 12th January 2017 1:30 pm