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where is my mind

You stuck your fingers up me and didn’t even know my name

You grabbed my ass and blamed it on the drink in your hand

You kissed my neck and pulled me into you

I was yours for the night---that one night.

 

I was too drunk and you knew. Yet you kept going

You kept going down on me further and further.

My bra somehow came off and you began to suck

I didn’t know what was going on. I felt so numb.

 

Numb to my entire life.

Numb to the fact that I will never be truly loved.

Numb to feeling anything.

Numbness is my therapy.

 

The ceiling fan kept spinning.

It spins the same way at the same speed everyday.

My life is a ceiling fan;

The same depressing routine every fucking day.


 

Guys like you are the reason I don’t feel anything.

Guys like you make me feel like an object.

Guys like you can never be trusted.

Guys like you make me feel validated by approval of my body.

 

You didn’t fuck me because in your mind sex is the only version of rape.

Touching every inch of my body isn't though.

It doesn’t count. Right?

The fact that you put my head on your dick isn’t rape.

 

Or the fact that you fingered me and sucked my tits isn’t rape.

The fact that you took me back to your dorm when i was drunk out of my mind isn’t rape.

It's just not. Rape is only sex. Sex is rape. But other stuff isn’t.

You weren’t drunk at all. You’re a great guy. Thank you for a great night. 

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J.D. Bardo

Tue 13th Oct 2020 04:29

interesting read, I have been on both sides of this situation. I don't know what else to say other than agreeing with Nicolas comments.

<Deleted User> (13740)

Mon 12th Oct 2020 19:28

Oh dear, both men and women are guilty of objectifying another human being its the virtual world we live in to blame. Also remember men can be taken advantage of and also raped. Forgive yourself for putting yourself in that situation if you were drunk and him sober he took advantage of your vulnerability. Rebuild your self esteem through self love and care xxx

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