Just because I've learnt to swim underwater,
Doesn't mean I can live without breathing.
Just because I can walk on the surface,
Doesn't mean I can't slip and start sinking.
If I don't look in the mirror,
Doesn't mean my face has changed.
If I start at the beginning,
Still I have to reach the end.
Just because there is a meaning
Doesn't mean I understand (or know it).
Just because the...
Sunday 30th May 2021 2:37 pm
Are you sleeping in my bed, tonight?
I know you're with my friends,
But that's alright.
There's a message I would send
If I could find you.
But you're more than lost to me,
Are you curious about my life?
I know it's very late,
And you are tired.
There's something you should know
If you wanted.
But you're probably too far out
To hear me.
Are you angry, about how...
Saturday 29th May 2021 7:46 am
I was better off feeling dead
Than feeling alive.
I was better off feeling low
Than on this false height.
I was better afraid of the dark
Than afraid to open my eyes.
I was better afraid of cutting myself
Than scared to survive.
Friday 28th May 2021 9:05 am
There was this precious vase that was my life.
It was a thing of beauty on a sacred shelf.
It had a purity and sense of truth.
It was a vessel of my love.
But now, I gaze at fragments strewn across my hearth.
How strange, since I can feel there's something else.
Yet, when I look down, I recognise that someone smashed it.
It must have slipped when I was cleaning.
I am sitting in the ...
Thursday 27th May 2021 4:49 am
It is a cloak that I sit on, covering the ground.
A cloak that no-one else can step on,
And it seems to span for miles like that.
Except that from the way I see it;
It ends a bare few inches away,
And it is sown rags,
And the torn edges are the end of my reality.
When I get lonely,
I cannot even pull it up to warm me
Because I am sitting in the middle.
Elsewhere, the ground seems real ...
Wednesday 26th May 2021 8:15 am
We don't think you ought to do that.
"Tell me what to do!"
We don't think you should feel like that.
"Tell me what to feel!"
You should know that there's always a way forward.
"Show me where to go!"
You should be stronger than that.
"Show me how."
We've decided you can cope if you try.
"You don't know what it's l...
Tuesday 25th May 2021 4:27 am
Sometimes, there are more thoughts
Than words to speak them.
Sometimes there is more will to live,
Than to go on breathing.
These arms are almost too heavy to type.
Too heavy to move.
I don't know how to break out,
And I don't see _why_ I should break out.
It is cloudy, but I can just see people looking in;
And I can see those that gave up looking in.
And those that don't know how to...
Monday 24th May 2021 5:16 am
I am a sleepless night.
I am a taut balloon.
I am a punctured tyre.
I am a violin.
I am a broken cup.
I am an endless maze.
I am a lonely child.
And I am giving up.
There's a way to live.
There's a way to laugh.
There's a way to breathe.
There's a way to last.
There's a way to die.
There's a way to win.
There's a way to try.
There must be a way to give in.
Sunday 23rd May 2021 1:40 am
If I am a monument;
I am out in all weathers.
They made me marble
So I would be cold in the sun,
Warm in the rain.
They made me on a pedestal
Because in their wisdom,
They knew it would be further to fall.
I am somewhere that no-one passes,
Because I am forgotten.
I am alone amongst pidgeons,
Saturday 22nd May 2021 9:41 am
No-one's happy with their life.
Someone, somewhere, was telling you stories.
If you are lucky, you'll do alright.
If you are lucky.
There's a way to be.
There's a way to cope.
Where's the God that's supposed to help us?
Where's the love that's meant to guide us?
Where's the hope?
No-one's meant to have it easy.
Someone, somewhere, must have been crazy!
Friday 21st May 2021 2:52 am
And all the world is wondering what started it.
In the playground, they want to know whose fault it was.
Life goes on, and life goes on,
And don't you know it's fated?
And all the world wants to know who ended it.
In the theatre, they wonder what it 'felt' like.
Time goes on, and time goes on,
Don't you know that it's decided?
Life is hoping that you make it.
The time you spend, teari...
Thursday 20th May 2021 12:40 am
Everything goes round the same, my friend;
Turn any which way, but when you think you have passed it,
It's on the horizon again.
I can't tell you what you want to hear.
Or shall I pretend that it's all
As you'd like it to be.
You take a deep breath, thinking everything's clear,
But it only take...
Wednesday 19th May 2021 8:54 am
I just need someone to massage my mind.
Oh, but these neurons are aching.
I just need someone to drag me up out of this life
Where I am dying.
I just need a hand while I find my feet,
But one that won't hurt me.
I just need a body to hold in the night,
But one that won't scare me.
I just need someone to cradle my thoughts,
Keep Baby from crying.
I just need someone to show me that th...
Tuesday 18th May 2021 5:15 am
And time goes on, my friend,
Your wounds that never heal,
Will grow an ugly face,
Your troubles never end.
And life goes on and on...
Your dreams that never came,
Will haunt you as you wake,
Your broken heart won't mend.
And I say
howl at the wind.
run with the river.
drift with the clouds.
burn with the fever.
Monday 17th May 2021 6:37 am
1 Yes, I ran away!
It was so close to killing me.
I couldn't take the pain,
But you think I should have let it end me.
What kind of justice
is without trial?
What kind of friend
fights on the other side?
What kind of life?
2 And I couldn't...
Sunday 16th May 2021 10:08 am
My mind is screaming for this pain to stop.
You say I am cold, but I am burning up
There is so much noise I'm surprised you can't hear.
It is creeping through my skin.
Dripping, with the sweat, from my hair.
How can I think of anything else?
The mind reels to this deafening pulse.
And I am near to breaking.
Thinking of taking the quickest way out,
And then you say I should stop...
Saturday 15th May 2021 10:13 am
Life is wearing me down, yeah
But you know that.
Life is fooling me around.
But what of that, yeah, what of that?
Didn't anyone say I was special.
No-one said life was gonna be fun.
Guess sometimes you just make assumptions.
Guess sometimes you just get it wrong.
Life is passing me by, now
But you know that.
Life is wondering why.
But what of that, now,...
Friday 14th May 2021 3:47 am
I'm not going to tell you that I'm breaking apart.
I'm not going to show you where you've broken my heart.
Why am I always being risked by other people?
Shot down in flames from a safe distance.
I'm not going to let you back to work from inside.
I'm not going to be there, when you realise why.
I'm not going to see you when I see you around.
I'm not going to hear your sounds.
Thursday 13th May 2021 11:12 am
Maybe, the tallest tree holds the sky up
Like a tent above our heads.
Maybe the wide branches shelter us,
As we hide against its sides.
Maybe, the near eternal trunk supports us
As we innocents rest.
And the sunlight is more beautiful,
Streaming through its leafy hair.
I could be lifted high, and safely in its arms,
And wonder at the beauty of the world
As it swayed.
There, would be p...
Wednesday 12th May 2021 10:14 am
Everything is going wrong.
Or everything went so wrong
I can't tell
If it stopped and I didn't notice,
And I can't tell
Everything is just nothing now.
Or everything was so much nothing,
I can't see
That there's any difference now,
And I can't see
Everything is tumbling down,
Or everything is built...
Tuesday 11th May 2021 3:31 am
If you are going to kill yourself
Someone is going to find you.
Do you want that?
You are trying to die, I might wish you success,
But for what?
So you don't like it how it is,
Do you think anyone does?
But it is better to change, than destroy...
Oh my god, I can't carry on like this.
Not each day the same same thing!
You want me to wait,
Monday 10th May 2021 8:20 am
I'm the one that's trying to tell you:-
This is all there ever will be.
Nothing you can say
Can change a thing,
I know everything about me.
Don't waste your time and
Don't waste your breath.
You think you want to help, but I
Know that's an empty threat.
I am the one, trying to show you:-
I live everything extreme.
Now you think I am being
Too hard on you, but
Cut me and I bleed.
Sunday 9th May 2021 7:23 am
These bloodless wounds will never heal.
"Father Time, save me."
I grow so weak as the not-blood spills.
"Mother Nature, cure me."
Rock me. Wash me. Make me clean again.
Saturday 8th May 2021 10:23 am
There is no time for the pillow to dry,
There is no hope, that's why I cry.
There is no future for all I see.
There are no perks,
To being me.
I would talk to myself if I had anything to say
I would comfort myself, did I think there was a way
To stay sane.
But what to believe?
All I can hear are the scr...
Friday 7th May 2021 7:56 am
There reaches that point
When you reach for the pills.
The things that you won't
The world thinks that you will.
The waiting for freedom
Is not soon enough.
The paying for wisdom
Is costing too much.
And there's nothing left.
Thursday 6th May 2021 3:58 am
Cocked and fired, cannon explodes.
Your cavalry charge this valley.
Shot, down in flames, you take me
Surrendered or fighting.
I fuel you, another charge.
Your war cry echoes
This death dance.
Do you take prisoners
Wednesday 5th May 2021 9:08 am
It is time to introduce a new sub-theme in Love's Tempest - depression. Undoubtedly the upcoming depression poems are intricately related to most of the prior themes in Love's Tempest, but there's space to ponder that perhaps through self-love alone, depression is always related to Love's Tempest. I don't know if that is true as I haven't experienced every type or every cause of depression that th...
Tuesday 4th May 2021 9:10 am
When there's nothing more to say
But your mind just keeps on talking,
When there's nothing left to feel,
You can always feel the same.
When there's nothing else to do,
There must be something you could be doing,
When there's nothing left to try,
You can always try again
But I can't take the pain,
And I can't take the sorrow,
Monday 3rd May 2021 3:47 am
I don't suppose you'll cry to lose
A broken heart.
There's certainly no use in tears
On spilt milk.
But teddy bears are often loved
The more for being old and used,
And holes give special comfort to
Those shoes unfit to walk in.
Why not accept the truth?
Even apples are despised and scorned
Sunday 2nd May 2021 3:54 am
How precious will you say I am?
It was care to hold me as you did.
It was cotton wool to dry my tears,
And hard steel to start them.
And yes protect me from the world.
Yes yes, protect me from myself.
It's wise to know these precious jewels,
And carelessness to drop them.
And will you call me muchly loved?
How softly do you claim to tread?
It's gales around this house of cards!
Saturday 1st May 2021 3:38 am