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Who Am I?
I haven't known how to be me
Or what it even means
For all of my life
Then you entered and finally I could exhale
And take a new breath
Breathing easy to your rhythm
You are the song I always want to dance to
Never tire of hearing
Can sing along to every word
The weeks became months became years
I still get excited when the song starts to play
I still listen til the end
Maybe y...
Wednesday 24th July 2024 2:48 pm
Allow yourself to heal
You talk about the past as it defines you
I hope one day you look past the pain and trama
For there is a gift inside you
For the world to see
Your kind and caring personality
You are not a prisoner of your past
Your prison cell has always been open
It time for you to walk on through
And let the world in and all it has to offers you
Nothing is ever broken or beyond repair
It takes tim...
Monday 22nd July 2024 9:19 am
Is this the end?
I watch as the colours from my life fade away
What was green or yellow, now grey
I still look for him in all the same places
Although now they don’t all show his faces
That hurts
He wants to leave no traces
I still type even though he won’t see
I wanted to stop so that he could be free
Now I’m the one trapped ironically
Still studying the words of his poetry
...Sunday 21st July 2024 10:50 am
Echoes of playtime
Walking around an empty hospital
Hearing voices, standing still
It's a strange feeling
Knowing there's no one on these grounds
Empty beds are blocking
As painful feelings are unlocking
Buried away in their homes
Scarred, anxious and alone
Yet the voices are protruding
Rebounding and allusive
Screams of fun and play come across
From another world now at a ...
Wednesday 10th July 2024 3:32 pm
Running
Have you ever stopped to ask why do I run
Ironically its only when you stop the mind runs wild
We run to be fit
We run to be social
We run to be healthy
But is it always healthy to run
I run for a different life I cannot have
I run Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday
My love runs Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday
I started so I could support her
To let her know I was with her eve...
Sunday 7th July 2024 11:43 am
Three dots
Three dots bounce with so much meaning
She is still there
We are connected once again
The light is green
For a moment we are back
But as quick as it comes it must go
Holding onto the green till the last moment
But must it go
Are the dots a pause
Till we are ready to reconnect
Are the dots hiding the sinister end
Or are the dots hiding the life we could have
Th...
Friday 5th July 2024 1:39 pm
Skybound
I am a son of the heavens.
I do not fall,
I can only fly.
The way the wind whispers
determines my path.
It has never once led me astray.
A gentle breeze ruffles my feathers,
while the sun's bright smile warms my face.
Clouds dance above my weightless form,
forming all kinds of shapes to entertain.
The world turns as do I.
Leaping carelessly through the endless sky...
Thursday 20th June 2024 9:22 pm
Face in the crowd
I pick your face out from the crowd
And you're all I can see
As we pretend to be strangers
I waited the one hour train journey
Hoping you would join me
But you never did
We remained separated by a single carriage
Little did I know you had far more in your arsenal to separate us
A Trident like deterrent
How did it come to this?
Well actually I do know the answer...
Friday 14th June 2024 11:52 am
My ills
It's 10.30 in the morning and I'm throwing up on the bathroom floor
Having drowned the person who I was before
All the drinking, drugging, lying, spending
Arriving very early for the doom impending
How did I get here, how did I lose control?
Waking up in fear and pain, drawing my first shot at 4
To stop the shakes and silence the anxiety
Once again becoming a liability in my society
Wh...
Saturday 8th June 2024 6:23 pm
Walk the wight
Walk the wight
With all your might
through sights similar to Honiton
which isn't too unlike Hobbiton
Names and faces are carried through an aching 33 miles
With care and thought all the while
Here we reflect and remember
the lost souls of our dark Decembers
We start off four in our fellowship
With hopes of seeing off our hardship
To cross a finish line is ou...
Wednesday 15th May 2024 12:05 pm
chronic pain
i'm sick of doing the best i can
because it isn't ever enough
if I can't be good,
what's the point of being here at all?
I never sleep well anymore
even though I tell the doctors I sleep fine
I just stare at the ceiling
and live through the lives of others
sit in class with an ache behind my eyes
I can't even tell if the pain is real
excedrin can only do so much
and I think my toler...
Thursday 14th March 2024 1:25 pm
Treading Water
We sit across from eachother
Our hands clasped tightly over the table
And in this moment we have everything
And yet we have nothing at the same time
Eyes locked on our targets
I can see your soul
It's calling me like a beacon
And I feel awoken
We lean in closer to this moment
Feeding off the energy like vultures to flesh
I could drown in those blue eyes
If I ...
Thursday 22nd February 2024 12:09 pm
Collapse
Feelings we cannot ignore..
Insecurity and jealousy
prying open the door
we had closed so tightly
When we had agreed
not to take things so seriously
The intensity overwhelms me
Lets just be friends and see..
"maybe its possilble
its impossible
let's just try
please don't cry
I am yours, commited don't you see
I don't belong to you,
nor you to me
but don't get it confuse...
Sunday 11th February 2024 9:26 am
A beautiful curse
Your presence in my life was a gift
for you showed me what I had missed
The deepest emotions, you showed me they exist
A love so deep is a beautiful curse
for the harder you love
the deeper it hurts
So now I find myself in agony
Learning to live with missing what once was
As well as never knowing what could've been.
Robyn Holmes
scribbles of a broken heart
Friday 9th February 2024 5:21 pm
Ode to Percy…(a cats best friend)
Watching the leaves fall
Standing so tall
Waiting at the window
I still wonder
It wasn't so long ago
I can still see us
Haunting shadows in the dusk
Running, fighting, climbing
Making footprints in the snow
Your furry figure lingers at the edges of my mind
Gone but not forgotten
Your smile runs to hide
Sunny days fade away
As you...
Wednesday 24th January 2024 9:57 am
50 cents
Every time you ask me a question I nod my head,
I’d rather be lying than dead.
“Do you believe in god, are your priorities straight?”
Stop treating me like I’m eight.
Every time you say “I love you” Is it really true?
Or am I dreaming of normal parents,
A better version of you.
The yelling is constant and won’t stop.
All the daggers you stabbed me with are sharp.
...Tuesday 23rd January 2024 5:05 am
Sorrow's Bounty
In a world of plenty, where joy should reign,
A soul wanders lost, drowning in pain.
He has it all, or so it seems,
Yet inside, he's adrift in shattered dreams.
Possessions many, but feelings in drought,
Tears concealed, smiles worn throughout.
Once in a while, breaks down unseen,
In the quiet ache, where joy's been.
Everything's there, yet nothing to hold,
A ...
Friday 19th January 2024 5:35 pm
Acknowledge me
It reaches further than "please fuck me" or "don’t touch me"
It’s a liminal in-between
A line we like to call blurry
But I never asked you to undress me
My body abandoned me
My words went slurry
Tongue too thick to go beyond a mumble
Kind sir escorted me to save me from stumble
Four times play on my mind
One of them I even forgot
Until it accosted me during a usual d...
Friday 12th January 2024 5:07 pm
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