Souvenir
Getting acquainted with the moon
behind glass
we exchange so many glances
and on my back
a thousand heart-attacks roll past
My fingers beside, cross and uncross
as you sleep, so black
back in the real world
paid up entirely
on your subscription
to actual reality
O would you bring me a souvenir
from the envious depths of endless peace
perhaps a child or a patient nurse
or some cont...
Tuesday 20th November 2018 6:29 pm
Written in anger and confusion
Should the feelings of guilt
outweigh those of resentment?
Is the fear of loneliness
worth more than fear of rage?
Is it wrong to long for simplicity
and abandon the search for contentment?
Is it right to write words of anger
on a blank, unforgiving page?
Is it wise to seek solace in poetry
when every act of writing
is seen as an act of selfishness
that can ne...
Friday 17th August 2018 11:33 pm
Back to the time my folks died in a fire
It burns again this time too deep
And in it the angry grows and steeps
It controls the mind and makes it worn
And with each corrosion of my sanity
With every severed sinew of logic
The fear churns into a thickening layer
That snaps back quicker
And harder
And sharper
I want to let it go
To let the anger flow
Through my shoulders and down to my toes
To the groun...
Wednesday 27th June 2018 9:28 pm
Knock Knock
You and your trust issues
Me and mine
You have your fears
And your doubts
About me
And I have mine
But every time
We try to rationalize
And prove to each other
That the pieces don't fit
The sentences get left
Unfinished
Back and forth
Like whiplash
Seeing how far I'll go
Until I look back
Keeping me comfortable
At a distance
Have...
Wednesday 27th June 2018 1:11 am
Real Life Nightmare
Every moment to fear,
Forever holding back internal tears.
Life- so complicated,
forever indecisive.
The world too big, too scary,
my mind so full of queries.
Never certain, never happy,
each decision could be deadly.
An escapes impossible,
every outcomes implausible.
Sinking under water,
Always being taken for a martyr.
The pain runs so deep,
Barely able to ...
Sunday 17th June 2018 11:34 pm
Misplaced Memory
Minds mould cannot always bend to the will - Look!
A blur of surreal reality:
it’s vivid, a memory, a means
but travel through years
and maybe it’s a dream,
or the worst fear:
(for the youth with infantile stretch marks to hear)
Forgotten.
For the youths with flat ironed flesh and barely dogmarked ears,
what we all fear
is to forget.
Tell the boy with the newly ...
Thursday 7th June 2018 3:52 pm
Fear and Wonder
The headlights from the oncoming vehicle
held the stunned animals in their grasp
The beams like a claw clasping around its prey
An unholy ray screaming silently into the night
Distant, but penetrating.
Approaching still closer,
terror in their hearts,
the vehicle turned off the road
And transformed into a rainbow
Dazzling colours and many forms.
Behold a crystal,
the prism of light br...
Tuesday 5th June 2018 8:59 pm
Percentage You
I wonder of 100,
How much of you I've seen,
I've seen your 2 or 10 percent,
As you have seen of me.
I wonder if you'll trust me,
With 10 percent more you,
Say 20 percent total,
Ill give the same to you.
I wonder if my percent me
would be safe with you,
No reassurance? Give it back!
Lets keep it back at 2.
Tuesday 5th June 2018 8:44 am
Chronic
I have recently read
That pain is the hardest
Situation a human can
Try to explain.
If that’s so,
Is fear considered
To be pain?
Does pain have to
Be a broken bone?
A head ache?
A tight chest?
A burn?
Is pain not
The anxiety of waiting
For everything to fit?
Is pain not
The force of trying
to piece together
two completely different
puzzles to become one?
I can never...
Tuesday 1st May 2018 3:46 pm
Fear
{Fear}
The morning dew is
on my shoes the birds
are chirping and singing
their tunes as the
morning sun brightens
up the sky with warm
crisper air that made
you take a deep breath
into your lungs waiting
to exhale
And
I fear
And as the birds goes
silent and the clouds
went a dark bluish gray
with the sun gone
behind t...
Thursday 19th April 2018 4:16 am
Puzzle Pieces (If You Think About It)
The right type of music
like the right type of doctor
inside you, cutting you open
breaking you apart and
reassembling your thoughts like a puzzle.
Not another world, just another space
seclude yourself from the rest
stare at what you are in that mirror
if you break it, it doesn't matter
stare at all the disappointed faces staring back
feel their fear, and understand
...Friday 30th March 2018 6:34 pm
In Sync
the sound of nails on skin
the ripping of those barriers
between whats in you and whats out
the sound of beats on your head
the swelling of self-hatred and humility
forced on yourself by yourself\
cry at the sight and more at the sound
be flushed with the shame\
knowing you're not good enough
look up at the sky at night
run by yourself in the dark
the outside is so...
Friday 30th March 2018 6:31 pm
Hope and Fear
She cried
We cried
We screamed
For her not to be lonely
Screamed at the gods to spare her
We would give ourselves but we weren’t good enough
How to be good enough
So that she could be spared
Dear God, let her be spared
Down from the face of our hope, tears fell to sizzle upon surfaces of burning wood. Pained wails, felt by the people who reached out to take...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:57 pm
Keep Me Cold
When You’re not looking
I want to die
The things of my past just hurt me
Do you know that I cry
Oh you don’t have a clue
I feel so low and vulnerable
That’s what I hate the most
My heart can’t take this manifestation
Before it gets you too, go
If my hands aren’t cold it doesn’t feel right
When my hands are warm it doesn’t feel right
So let em g...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:54 pm
(Tell Me)What I Want to Hear
Please tell me if
Please tell me now
Have I suffered enough
Have I fallen to the ground
It feels like I’m falling still
I’ve cried for help haven’t I
Was I not that loud
Do I even deserve the help
Guess I’ll just shut my mouth
I’m not okay
Please just tell me I’m not
Tell me
It won’t be fine
Admit that
That’s alright
I don’...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:45 pm
Love's Just a Feeling
Loves just a feeling
It often changes
It may go quick and crash
Or keep you waiting
It's a good high
But the fall is pretty harsh
I wouldn't want to get hurt
I'm not too fond of goodbyes
People say I haven't tried it
And thus should with them
For that I spew excuses
And yet they still go at it
I don't believe anything could ever last
...Friday 30th March 2018 4:43 pm
Through the Gate
All around me the fog dances
I look on to see as it tests its chances
Waiting for me to open the gate
It waits
I stare at it as it does the same
I take a step closer it watches
I take another
It's eyes slightly bigger
I stop
I open my mouth to speak
Nothing comes out
The fog whispers do not
I stay where I stand
Not daring a step
It's fingers...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:41 pm
Unloveable
I have many scars
You can’t see in the light
Behind my smile
Is a world of pain
Constant battle
With myself
Whether it’s worth it
To try anymore
‘Cause in the dark
I introduced you
To every part of me
Showed you everything
When the sun came up
The truth came out
And without a doubt
I’m unloveable
Should’ve known
Never should’ve...
Wednesday 28th March 2018 8:33 pm
Fear and Worry
You want to let it go
then let her go
she has her life
and it is quite clearly without you
...........for the time being
Are you frightened of becoming
like your mother?
Hated by the daughter?
Never speaking or giving her the time of day?
Then, I wish you well my dear
Fear is your teacher
and worry your god
I fear for you
and worry for your future
as you do not yet know
what i...
Saturday 24th March 2018 9:44 pm
Points
Singular point of hope
balancing in one dimension
drive the stake deep, swing without reservations
for this is the beginning
doubled
added vector
sure footing eyes
to the horizon
averted from the abyss below
another point right planar
temptations of rest
loss of balance still precarious
point added placed correctly
a broad base of stability?
po...
Tuesday 13th March 2018 6:51 pm
Shy Guy
{Shy Guy}
He was a little bit of
a shy guy who seemed
to keep to himself
besides talking to a
few of his co-workers
where he worked at
And as the neighbor
next door to him saw
him all the time he
reminded her of a
cute fuzzy bear that
played in stars wars
called ewok because
his cheeks was
roundish oval shaped
with a some hair ar...
Monday 12th March 2018 2:14 am
Control
Intense thick clouds obscuring vision,
Pre planned malice yet no thought given,
A mess of unplaced thoughts surround
Logic whispers but i wont listen
The calm that follows leaves air so thick
A lack of focus a clearing mist
A wind that blows me from where i came
And ignorance is mine again
Exhausting though this place may be
This clouded space is part of me
To leave i need a place of...
Saturday 3rd March 2018 11:40 pm
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