loneliness (Remove filter)
Different Hand
Differant Hand
I cannot ever speak unless I am spoken to.
Take the risk of being beaten black and blue.
Violence is the normal for little people like me.
Everyday occurrence in this caring facility.
Very soon I will they will move me on again.
And I will still receive the same old violence,
Just it would be with a different person’s hand.
Nataiella (1972) Childho...
Tuesday 3rd December 2024 10:38 pm
Imaginary Friends (Voices in My Head)
Imaginary Friends. (Voices in my Head)
Wow it's 3:00 in the morning and I'm exhausted from all that socialising.
I planned for a quiet night in watching the television, then out of nowhere my friends started materialising.
It's been a while since I had friends I could sit and have a laugh with, I thought this might well give my mood a much-needed lift.
The sofas were full of peopl...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 6:38 am
Loner Bird
I saw you my friend
Looking toward the sky
I thought you knew you, my friend
Things aren't supposed to die
Loner Bird
Why did you have to die?
Londer Bird
Why did you have to lie?
I saw you again
Sitting upon the edge
Of the same window cill
As the past thousand times
Loner Bird
Why did you have to die?
Londer Bird
Why did you have to lie...
Friday 25th October 2024 3:28 pm
Roadside roses
From the lover you'll never know
A note scribbled down in tears
sits atop a mound of colour
Trying to work out these forgotten fears
From a family torn and lost
Flowers that soon will rot
Your teddy sits upon the mound, arms wide open
Melting, muddy and forgotten
For the journey now cut short
With an ending some had thought
If only you could see things
How b...
Thursday 17th October 2024 1:38 pm
Single The Odd One Out
Single the odd one out!
Baby blue, sky blue, navy blue, red.
Correct!
Red does not belong here.
Let's do another one.
Jeans, jumpsuit, jacket, towel.
Correct!
Towel does not belong here.
Now, for the final round.
Sister, mother, brother, father, I.
Correct again!
'I' does not belong here.
Saturday 7th September 2024 11:49 pm
Entwined
Let me search for a lonesome tree,
For little old lonesome me
To give some quiet company.
Let my body replace
The absence of its leaves.
Let the wind caress my skin,
As tenderly as it would the leaves.
And when the day awakes,
With the sun peeking up
from beneath its covers,
Let a singular shadow be cast.
Of a hanged man and a tree,
Keeping e...
Monday 12th August 2024 5:15 pm
August 2024 Collage Poem: The Square Root of Loneliness
Race war frozen in memory
black dogs cast out angles that make me scream inside
This gift of feeling love ends with a thousand
empty days made of silk
In their lives of long distress
The solace of choice, securely made
near the coastal shelf of abstract loneliness
Dancing to Shakespeare and his funky
verses about metaphysical loneness.
The calming mellowness of...
Friday 9th August 2024 9:47 am
Swallow Me
I slink around in my one-bedroom apartment
wallowing in my loneliness.
It feels like everyone who I have ever loved has
absconded from my grasp.
Shockingly,
they all fled in their own unique fashion.
Some moved away.
Some I moved away from.
Some turned out to be different
from whom I thought they
ought to be.
Some transformed into something more
sinister
...Sunday 21st July 2024 12:28 am
Running
Have you ever stopped to ask why do I run
Ironically its only when you stop the mind runs wild
We run to be fit
We run to be social
We run to be healthy
But is it always healthy to run
I run for a different life I cannot have
I run Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday
My love runs Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday
I started so I could support her
To let her know I was with her eve...
Sunday 7th July 2024 11:43 am
Three dots
Three dots bounce with so much meaning
She is still there
We are connected once again
The light is green
For a moment we are back
But as quick as it comes it must go
Holding onto the green till the last moment
But must it go
Are the dots a pause
Till we are ready to reconnect
Are the dots hiding the sinister end
Or are the dots hiding the life we could have
Th...
Friday 5th July 2024 1:39 pm
Tide Pools
A cigarette glows
reflected in the truck windshield
careening through the city night
These headlight beams
fruitlessly searching
for something gone
The Grand Rapids highways
never take me where I want to be
not even close
I drink awhile at Anchor bar
a quarter spinning on the table
thoughts go round, keep coming back
'til my skull's swimming too
Two more beers
heads they’re mine
t...
Monday 24th June 2024 4:41 pm
Face in the crowd
I pick your face out from the crowd
And you're all I can see
As we pretend to be strangers
I waited the one hour train journey
Hoping you would join me
But you never did
We remained separated by a single carriage
Little did I know you had far more in your arsenal to separate us
A Trident like deterrent
How did it come to this?
Well actually I do know the answer...
Friday 14th June 2024 11:52 am
Stay home
I hear there's a festival outside,
Laughing, joking, jostling and frolicking,
But I'm OK, I'll stay inside.
I heard they've brought Freddie back live on stage,
To rock and roll, it's all the rage,
But I'm OK, I'll read about it sometime.
I hear world peace has broken out finally,
Dancing and singing wildly
But I'm OK, I'll Youtube it later
I hear it's that...
Monday 10th June 2024 10:47 am
Single Father
Youthful days are fleet and fast, adulthood it beckons
Maturity in years it grows, quickly in few seconds
Visualise your wings unfold and soar careers path
In dreams I see your face so small and hear mischievous laugh
Companionship vacated, in emptiness to wallow
Loneliness unfolds, bitter is the pill to swallow
Sometimes I yearn to rewind the days, erase the sorrow's tide
For you to ...
Friday 3rd May 2024 7:26 pm
My Love Is For Me, Not For You
Roses are red, violets are blue,
When I think of your love for me, I lose love for you.
What does my love feel like to me?
Being surrounded by beauty that only I can see.
Hidden behind my smile is someone fragile, flawed, and easily broken.
I showed you all of my healed scars and one by one you ripped them back open.
Again and again, my mind retreats to happier days while I ...
Wednesday 27th March 2024 1:03 am
Alone
I wish it would have been a war
that was the explanation for
the reason you are not around,
the reason I don’t hear the sound
of your voice anymore.
No, I don’t hear it anymore.
And I wish it were all a dream
although a bad one it would seem,
cuz then at least I’d have the chance
to open up my eyes and glance
upon your face, but I don’t see it.
No, not anymo...
Monday 4th March 2024 4:13 pm
cobwebs
there’s cobwebs
on your side of the bed.
not the same bed,
across state lines
in a town by the coast
where no one knows our names.
I am afraid to disturb them,
to make a space as unfillable
as the miles between my window
and the haunting moon.
I am afraid most days,
as memory slides into silk shadows
lurking on the edges of rest
like cobwebs
on your side
...Saturday 3rd February 2024 8:50 am
Whispers of Loneliness
Wearing a smile, but it's just a show,
Loneliness whispers, won't let go.
In the crowd's noise, a silent plea,
Heartache murmurs, longing to be free.
Behind laughter's mask, a tale untold,
Loneliness unfolds, a story unfolds.
They feed on tears, a bitter taste,
In solitude's grasp, emotions embraced.
Moving with shadows, the soul steps back,
Loneliness stay...
Monday 15th January 2024 4:58 pm
Recent Comments
Hélène on Mary with child
2 hours ago
Naomi on BIRD WATCHING
3 hours ago
Naomi on BIRD WATCHING
3 hours ago
Tom on By Pessall Brook
7 hours ago
Martin Elder on Resigned
9 hours ago
Marla Joy on BIRD WATCHING
9 hours ago
alan pascoe on Chop/Change/Edit
10 hours ago
Trevor Alexander on BIRD WATCHING
13 hours ago
Trevor Alexander on Botticelli’s Dreams
13 hours ago
Trevor Alexander on Sermon
14 hours ago