First Sentence

The page awaits, too silent to forgive,
Each empty line a dare I can’t defend.
What if I write what shouldn’t even live?
What if I start, and ruin where I end?

A phrase begins — I edit while I write,
Then stop, and stare, and scroll, and check the time.
The sentence fights its own pathetic fight,
Too scared to be too dull, too sharp, too prime.

I think of all the better things I’ve made,
And none of them seem good enough today.
Ideas bloom, then brown, then curl and fade,
I weigh each word until they drift away.

The cursor blinks — a silent, pulsing threat.
I save the file. It holds three words. And sweat.
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writer’s blocksonnetperfectionismfear of failurecreative paralysisprocrastinationwhite sheet syndromepoetryself-doubtartistic struggle

◄ Bitter Heights

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Stephen Gospage

Sun 18th May 2025 16:58

The blank canvas is scary, even when you have something in mind. Thanks for this, Rolph.

Rolph David

Sun 18th May 2025 07:36

To Marla Joy:
Marla, thank you so much for your kind words — it means a lot that this piece resonated with you. I especially appreciate you saying the struggle here “has a life of its own” — that’s exactly the strange irony I was hoping to catch: the paralysis that still somehow breathes. I’m honoured this one became a favourite for you.
Regards,
Rolph

To Red Brick Keshner:
Red Brick, your words struck me — “the stump” and “the undocumented demise of Rimbaud’s poetic pen” feel hauntingly apt. Yes, the blank page can become that relentless chisel, and too often the break is silent, unnoticed. Thank you for reading into the quiet anguish here — your response brought a deeper echo to the piece.
Regards,
Rolph

To Graham Sherwood:
Graham, thank you for your honest and very relatable take — there’s real wisdom in separating the act of creation from the act of editing. I admire that free flow you describe — toast and coffee as editing tools feels wonderfully sane. I might just borrow that method next time I catch myself wrestling mid-sentence.
Regards,
Rolph

And again a huge "thank you" to Naomi and Holden!

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Graham Sherwood

Sun 18th May 2025 05:58

As Marla has already noted, you capture our plight well. Personally I never edit while I write, there's no time it just spills out. Editing comes with a coffee and a piece of toast. It's a luxury.

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Red Brick Keshner

Sun 18th May 2025 03:10

Oh these are the writing moments that chisel away at the stump… I’ve seen it break the writer as well. Brings to mind the undocumented demise of Rimbaud’s poetic pen. 🌷🕊🙏🏻

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Marla Joy

Sat 17th May 2025 18:38

Rolph,
You bring to life what we all struggle with in a way that has a life of its own. This is a favorite for me.

Marla

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