Poetry Blog by Scattered Sun
A Girl on If My Life Was A Movie (Tue, 2 Mar 2021 09:44 am)
In his youth he had found a hammer
Which he believed to be perfect at first
But as years went by, he discovered its flaws.
Later in life he found another hammer
He claimed it made him happier.
Even though it sometimes gave him pain
It brought him much joy and fit him perfectly
It was what he had been searching for!
The old hammer had hurt him more times than not
It had ...
Tuesday 11th May 2021 9:16 am
When your heart is aching
And you stop believing
When there are no tears left to cry
And hope has run dry
When the pain has dulled
And your will has died
When life has lost meaning
And nothing is worth doing
When you run out of time
And can’t get what you want
When you have lost the battle
And realize the dream is impossible
That When is my N...
Wednesday 5th May 2021 3:25 am
From everyone else, you won’t take crap
But with her you seem to just give up
Please open your eyes and see
She has treated you so badly
When you excuse her behavior
You become an enabler
From my third person perspective
Her actions are bordering abusive
Although it frustrates me so much
I do understand your reasons for such
Your arguments are very valid a...
Tuesday 4th May 2021 2:12 am
Look over your shoulder...
Did someone overhear...
Is someone reading my email...
What if she finds out...
What if he knows that was me...
Are my calls monitored...
Is my password secured...
Did someone see us...
Will she make a fuss...
What if he tells our secrets...
Did he see through our stories...
She seems to suspect something...
He’s behaving differently.....
Monday 12th April 2021 6:20 pm
I thought I was invisible
But you saw me
I thought I was fat and unpretty
But you made me feel hot and sexy
I thought I was plain and boring
But you said I’m fun and interesting
I thought I was too intellectual for any man
But you didn’t seem to mind
I feel sometimes that I’m too old
But you made me feel young once more
I liked it clean and si...
Friday 2nd April 2021 8:44 am
It is winter, I'm in hibernation,
Life in limbo, in total oblivion.
The cold seeps in, inhabits my body
Filling my every pore so completely.
Everything is so dreary and dark,
It makes my aloneness so stark.
I see nothing but emptiness,
It swallows me in its vastness.
I anxiously, impatiently wait for spring,
For whispers of a new beginning,
For the reassur...
Tuesday 9th March 2021 2:06 am
Time is divided
Not by minutes or seconds
But by before and after
Of defining moments.
We talk of time and life
As two sides of an event:
Before the pandemic,
After the lockdowns,
Before I lost my job,
After the big storm,
Before I met you,
After you left.
Wednesday 3rd March 2021 12:09 pm
If my life was a movie
I wonder who I would be
Would I be the despised villain
Or the much-loved heroine
Would the audience take my side
And with my reasons be satisfied
Would they agree with my decisions
Or would they condemn my actions
Would they say they can relate
Or am I the one they’d hate
If my life was a movie
I wonder what the ending would be
Tuesday 2nd March 2021 12:46 am
The day started out great
Had so many things planned,
A quick trip to the beach
For much needed sun and sand.
Not a thought of you that morning
But checked my feed on the way
And IG just had to remind me
Of a memory 3 years ago today.
A happy photo of us, all smiles
That day had been surreal and fun.
Then my brain went on overdrive
Suddenly, I was back t...
Thursday 25th February 2021 4:40 pm
Done, said, sent
Given or withheld
At the right moment
Or at the wrong time
How quickly they
Can alter life’s course
For better or worse
Tuesday 23rd February 2021 9:40 am
On that Friday afternoon
I waited by my phone
But my phone didn’t ring.
I called your number
But you didn’t answer.
I don’t understand why
You didn’t say goodbye
Especially since you said
You don’t know when
We could talk again.
You left me hanging,
Confused and wanting.
We have very limited time
But why won’t you talk to me
Even when there’s o...
Monday 22nd February 2021 3:39 am
In a dream I saw you again...
You walked in the door
Your face unshaven.
Your familiar embrace
Your distinct musky smell
Your lips which know me well
The warmth of your skin
Your intoxicating touch
I missed all of you so much.
We cling to each other
We cannot let go
We start slow
But hunger takes over.
In your penetrating gaze
My feelings overflow...
Wednesday 17th February 2021 7:20 am
I dial her number
I hear the sleep in her voice
Did I wake her
She says No, but I think I did
I say I’m on my way over.
She meets me as I get out of my truck
A warm hug, a hot kiss.
We lie in bed
Entwined in the joy of each other
Hearts beating faster and faster
Sighs of contentment
I screenshot the moment.
Late lunch at our favorite place
Sunday 14th February 2021 5:44 pm
I know that he misses me
Whenever we’re not together
And he would be with me if he could.
I know he loves to hear about my day
And all the stories I share,
No matter how mundane or insignificant.
I know that even when he’s mad
He still cares and worries about me
He still puts me first.
I know that he loves my presence
And enjoys the time we spend,
Wishing for th...
Thursday 11th February 2021 8:08 am
I wake up wondering if it was all a dream
When I recall what happened,
My tummy heaves like a boat on a stormy sea
I feel myself sinking into a dark abyss
The feeling of emptiness settles in
The void is so raw and so keen
I avoid getting up for as long as I can
Wishing everything to be back to what it was
I get up with both heart and body so heavy
Try to eat j...
Tuesday 9th February 2021 1:36 am
I am not okay
But I will manage
I am scared
But I try to show courage
I am lost
But I will eventually find my way
I am bored
But I find things to fill my day
I am sad
But I will have to learn to cope
I am desperate
But I need to think there's hope
I am overwhelmed
But I try to think things through
I need you
But I will have to live sans you
I wanna t...
Sunday 7th February 2021 12:51 am
And he took the sun with him
I'm left with nothing but regrets, fantasies and memories
Mostly regrets for that night...
He shouldn't have, I shouldn't have...
Does it even matter?
I am waiting
Wishing, hoping, praying
Saturday 6th February 2021 4:19 pm