Nothing touches me,
that connection I ache for
never more than fleeting
Always something there – stopping it.
Dark, insecure, stubborn.
Oh, so infinitely stubborn.
And I’m stuck here
Sunday 22nd May 2022 4:37 am
What are they thinking?
The conversation - such that it is, slows…
eye contact again
a general inquiry as to some bullshit that I also do not care about.
Off it goes again
I’m not listening again
thinking about other things,
Why don’t I care enough to listen?
Because they are the sa...
Saturday 30th April 2022 5:40 am
Subtle and beguiling
transporting me to places.
the journey is instant.
Sunday 17th April 2022 11:05 pm
A seed falls.
It lands, barely audible
it falls from a tree, a 50 year old tree
50 times around the sun.
Rain and Wind.
Its roots working their way through the soil
for 50 years.
To create a seed to fall one day
to be heard.
And I was there.
Thursday 31st March 2022 12:25 pm
The place I go to
it’s always there
as real as it can be
its real to me.
Somewhere near but a map will never show
It’s a house
a pond beside
and trees large and green
a winding path
a shady porch.
Not in a town but nearby
its quite most of the day.
I'll find it I know
and when I do
it will be my time.
Tuesday 15th March 2022 9:59 am
I woke and there was a beautiful pigeon next to me.
On the bed.
6 feet tall with white feathers
I looked and saw good things,
then fading away but yet remaining
resetting what I see.
Tuesday 15th March 2022 9:51 am
Empathy and care
that burns all
a never ending struggle
No result - No change - No difference
Except to me
that’s the difference
can’t be ignored
can’t be left
more resilient than all the love in the world.
I didn’t know that
Tuesday 15th March 2022 9:40 am
Forgotten how to smile
forgotten how to react
how to engage
Why is it life?
It’s not life
Its how I choose to live
Learn to smile again
I smiled in Spain
even when I was in so much pain
It needn’t be so far removed from day to day life
Tuesday 15th March 2022 9:20 am
If I feel it,
If I taste it,
If I love it,
When I lose it - it's more real.
Thursday 24th February 2022 10:07 am
Wake and feel,
wake and breathe..
Where? What? Is it?
Don’t endure this – it’s a waste. Live - try to live.
move a little
move a little more.
Thursday 24th February 2022 9:52 am
Walking to the station lost in thoughts.
A useless collection of ideas and emotions swirl around me,
and I gradually tune out even those.
Leaving a vague existence between aware and asleep.
Time and life drift by and it’s a comfortable place.
Arriving at a destination without knowing anything of the time in-between.
That time. Gone.
Tuesday 22nd February 2022 8:06 am
The world around me is how it used to be:
Fresh, alive, peaceful, welcoming.
Alone but not alone,
I’m part of this world again,
not fighting it
Not competing and being judged.
A modest meal awaits,
with good wine,
Tuesday 22nd February 2022 7:44 am
No, I rent
Yes, I’m actually renting..
No, no, no, not looking to buy.
I don’t have rich parents
Yes, I should buy..
And how about you?
Tuesday 22nd February 2022 7:30 am
After the Meseta,
after the heat,
after the stones.
The green hills
the shady paths
The way is rocky and steep.
keep your balance and
Peace around you.
And then there it is – La Faba.
I have arrived
And part of me will never leave.
Tuesday 22nd February 2022 7:26 am
Just you, in a foreign land.
Remembering what its like to be you.
No agendas No pressure
Time only matters when you are leaving in the morning and when you need to sleep.
Seeing things and feeling again.
Around you no-one is rich or poor,
everyone has a story and a reason to be there
to be shared and reco...
Sunday 20th February 2022 10:37 am
TV, radio, online:
Unsustainable, Downturn, The bubble, will burst!
Never remotely happens,
avoid these stories
Scroll past, scroll, scroll
Turn it off,
Ignore, but there it is again.
And the uncomfortable feeling remains...
Sunday 20th February 2022 10:28 am
As the world slides by on old steel rails.
And your seat reminds you it’s too hard.
And thoughts wander, breathing slows.
Everything is fine.
But it’s broken.
A deafened sound.
Emotions and frustrations.
Bursting, breaking, bolting in all directions.
Words mashed as one.
Protesting innocence and injust...
Tuesday 8th February 2022 9:53 am
I walked and thought. I walked and thought some more.
Feeling alive in a foreign land. The sound of my feet.
My breathing, faster on hills.
The comfort of my pack hugging me.
Water for the day.
My body adapting to the daily routine.
Every day my pack a little lighter, my walking more relaxed and fluid. Calmness and contentment grow.
Tuesday 8th February 2022 9:38 am