Things have changed
My heart over powers my head lately
Must be linked to my stomach
I'm always feeling sick
My person has opened up
I've been shut down for so long
I require drastic change
Shame is what I'm swimming in
I don’t feel guilty I just hate
Knowing how you are going to look at me
I never know what you think
I feel like you will just settle with me
Instead of punishing me
and open your eyes to see
I don’t want to go that far
I just want you to understand
Why this part of my life means so much
The pain is excruciating
Do you remember
how I sat in my own sadness
This will pass for you
And now maybe for me to.
I cant do this to us anymore
I cant lose what's made me happy
I'll drag you down with me
I'm not going down without a fight
There will be things I will do out of spite.
If I settle for what had put me here
This time you will have a little taste.
If I'm going to be miserable again
Ill show you how the weak work
We both will stand
with our spines in our hands
I'm no longer going alone
down this worn down path
If you want it this way
We will make another home
To crumble then to sweep
our same problems underneath
You know you don’t deserve this
But you are throwing me back
To the deep black water
And I'm so tired of paddling.
a taste of my world You will receive.
Let me remind you of the years I was never seen.
Let me show you what's truly lonely.
Prepare for the long darkness
Prepare for the nights of being lost
Prepare for the pain your heart reaps
I've lived this already
Its your turn to do the carrying.
I'm not doing this again for free
The tears shed will now be
Drenching your side of the bed.
Lets see how fast you become