What is an alcoholic?
What is an alcoholic?
When I was 2 you were all I knew
I had no idea what the bubbly juice was
But I knew it was good and it came from you
At 3 I can only remember seeing you hyper
Never understood your words were you speaking proper?
I don’t know what happened but mommy had to go
Now im just left here no soul 3 years old.
Grandma and Grandpa are extremely nice
Spent 10 years with them
Had the best childhood forgot who mommy was back then
But then mommy came back and took me
Completely shook me
After learning out crack cocaine was your downfall
And 10 years you spent fixing it all
Yet somehow at 13 I finally saw you fall.
Come over to autums house every weekend yall
Shes got the coolest mom
Well have a bonfire and drinks in her back yard starting in fall
Friends after friends thought that I had it going on
All because my mom would get us all drunk and wed all sing along
One shot two shot three shot four
Im only 14 keep the drinks coming MORE
At 15 I started to notice that you had to drink before you went out
4-5 drinks before you entered the bar
Youd always say to me you gotta make sure your toasty before you spend it all
16-20 I hated you the most
Because that glass was your daughter and I was your victim.
You started to hit me, hate me and call me names
Where was my mom WHERE
But I figured it was the alcohol that put you up there
Day after day night after night I watched you get drunk what a scary sight
After punches to the head my dad holding me down while you went crazy instead
Your drinks went from wine coolers to 50-50
Half vodka half orange juice knifty
I thought you were dying and you were thru
20 plus hospital visits
Pancreaitis, dehydration, not understanding where alcohol has left you
All ive ever wanted was a mom to be there
But alcohol is your daughter
My biggest fear
You love it more then me.
YOU worship it its plain to see
How can I tell you that your losing my love
How can I believe that was there ever any love
Your not ever going to be able to be the mom I need you to be
Because alcohol came and took you long ago
Far far away from me
So what is an alcoholic?
Isnt it plain to see
Someone who loves the rush of liquid more then they love me