I

don't need you to save me

only be near me

I want

        to sit quietly with you while we're working,

        I want

                to ride a two person bike together, or steer a canoe, & describe what is most beautiful

While

I gaze

on that which is

                         beyond beauty, beyond description, beyond what I dared to dream

the you

             o...

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Muses must be heard. That is the thing; once you wake them up, they sing & sing & sing

    This, you see, is a problem. 

            Because I’ve got work to do.

Can’t be a muse and a poet, and advocate, win the bread, stead the home, fort the hold, AND sustain lives,

                            not well i can’t, not all

Every night

    you awaken me

At this ungodly hour so fu...

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There are five straight stages of grief

            Mine, however, are all jumbled, uneven and completely out of order

First is denial, then denial, then depression, then denial. How odd. More denial then, thief

Remember before?

    Before i recognized anything or knew anything? I’d run around pretending and giggling; telling you my utter fantasies. Pretend you were in love with m...

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Salvation.

Can it ever be overdue?

Isn’t it always due? Every damn minute?

SALVATION:    

to be delivered (or rescued) from peril

preservation or deliverance from harm, ruin, or loss

deliverance from sin and its consequences

deliverance from the power and effects of sin

a source, cause, or means of being saved or protected from harm, risk, lo...

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Three days away from my pen is a good sign; a sign I’m healing & mending & sewn right up

No duality splitting the seam down the middle; I’m solid

Of course there is what is and what is

One is invisible to the eye; is essential

The other every else can see

I remember

I know how to be a muse; sweet, familiar territory to me

    I have been the lone gathe...

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Wait

you warned me: told me; sang given gifts galore

to an oblivious child luring moonbeams in the sand

Hey wait

Oh, yea, oh, well, oh, my, oh Just oh

There’s my breath again oh there we go. Hey you did tell me mine

I was not prepared; should have been because was told twice by design

Wasn’t listening

was lost in the lusty blood-dripping knifey part i guess

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The point

The mission

The quest, if you will

            Is to go back to living a sweet life

Did you know you took that from me?

Took my rest?

Have you ever soaked in a natural hot spring?

See, i don’t know and that’s a problem for me

It’s something i should have known before I let you pack those pretty leather bags

Language paints such beautiful pict...

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Two paths there were, in a yellowing swampy type of wood, with no-hunting signs plastered 

all around

One was the heart path

Which knows ancient wisdom

and can forgive

    drastic violent silent sudden vanishings

The other was the thought path

which plots & plans & twists

    to come up with many, many, many possible scenarios

In which the scene where you are l...

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For behold, a great truth has been made known when the water turned to mist

I am more beautiful for having been loved

Yes betrayed but the reason stands behind the library shelf

I screamed so they threw me out of there, now i’ll never find out how that one love story ended...

But having even briefly been loved

I can see afresh each page of the book

As if it was a new bo...

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Time runs backwards now

Notes become poetry and letters go all out of order, poems from yesterday go at the top and long ago musings are way far down squished at the bottom where silly deluded vanity-given poems must be driven

No words make sense of this

For there is not any small or significant sense to be made of this, there is no box to pack it up neatly with a bow and put away on...

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Like a tangled knot i pull and twist and jerk and dig and strive, to give up in bafflement before starting all over again a moment later

You loved me beyond love

Then you left me

Somewhere there is some sense to be made of this; some valuable lesson that i! need! to! untangle! only this 

knot grows tighter like it’s squeezing air 

Can’t quite catch - can’t quite untangle -...

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Yes i feel you

Yes i can feel

        From so far away

                    Time nor distance making any difference

I still feel you

The storm is rolling in

I stand at the edge of this ocean and yes i call it, i play, i drum it into being, i own my drum proudly

For you left a cyclone

You created it then left it and at first the eclectic air electrified me but now i...

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I felt a lightning bolt hit me once before

They say that’s how it happens, it takes you unaware, when you least expect it, a stranger can take your hand in an outdoor cafe

and that one touch

can alter the entire chemical makeup of your very existence

Until the universe in its entirety feels slightly shifted, definitely brighter, sweeter, more intoxicating

You suddenly feel love for ...

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Yesterday you left me.

Yesterday

The entire earth changed, got smaller, stifling

The light went out in the woods, the warmth went out of the sun, the future went out of all laughter

How could you leave me when you have not been with me?

Do you think my admiration so fleeting that you need only turn your back

and i am an ending?

This is the biggest love I have ever kn...

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