Poetry Blog by Justine Ramos
once was a sweet inocent young girl
a young girl who always followed the rules
always listen what was told
never disapointed anyone
but she was never happy
always wanted to fit in
and to be loved and to be popular
honestley she would do anything to fit in
even go to places she shoudnt go
like to that party she didnt even want to go to
but if that meant fitting in
Saturday 20th April 2019 7:53 am
i always thought about this day
the day i would finally have the balls
the balls to finally end my own life
its really what i imagine
just the darkness and me
i never thought i could do it
i been thinking about for years now
i never not did it cause i was getting happy
i didnt ever do it cause i never had the courage
but i think tonight is the night
nothing too fancy ...
Saturday 20th April 2019 7:39 am
throw me on the bed
start kissing on my body
strip me till i am bare
place your hands all over me
make me feel a different way
tell me how you plan to satisfy me
remember its just me and you
there are no rules or limits
whatever you want goes
i just want you to please me
like no one has before
Saturday 20th April 2019 7:27 am
There is no such thing as happinees
no such thing as friends or family
just disappointment and sorrow
lies and envy
brokenness and pain
thats what we live for now days
not to be happy
but to be content
no one really wants to see you happy
honestly not even yourself
just living because honeslty we dont have the courage to take our own lives !
Saturday 20th April 2019 7:23 am
Losing you hit a nerve that I thought could never be hit
pain that can never heal, pain that will never go away
tears that will never stop, or hurt that will never heal
memories that will never go away
Losing you made me realize that you was my world
no one could ever take your place
never fill in your shoes
love me like you did
Losing you was an eye opener
Friday 22nd December 2017 9:02 pm
I always see all these couples and I ask myself are the really happy ? Are they really in love ?
Will i ever experenice love and happiness like that ? Will I ever be happy like them ?
I know a realtionship and love is not something you can rush , but I always ask myself when will I get to be in love and be happy.
Will I always be this unhappy and not loved ? Like what do I have to change ...
Friday 3rd November 2017 8:39 pm
As I reach for the bottle I stop and think why am I really drinking ? Do I drink for fun ? Do I like the way it makes me feel ? When did I start drinking? Do i really have a problem ? Why do I drink so much ? Why can I not stop? Do I really depend on drinking ? All these questions run threw my head everytime . And i always tell myself I drink to make the pain go away, it stops me thinking about ev...
Friday 3rd November 2017 8:22 pm
As I start to reach for the blade I start to cry
I start to put the blade closer to my am
Shaking and crying, I know this is what I want to do , but I can not
I put the blade on my arm and start to cut
The pain starts to feel good and overwhelming
The pain feels so good, I go to my other arm
With the blade on my arm and blood dripping all over me
I start to forget about the pa...
Thursday 2nd November 2017 5:14 pm
As I lay here in my tears, I realize there is nothing else to cry about.
Nothing else to worry about .
No one to even care for.
As I lay here in my tears , I start to wonder why I lived this long,
Why I just dont give up yet.
Why I just dont end it now.
As I lay here in my tears, I think who will miss me when im gone,
Who will actually cry ,
Who would be upset that I am no...
Thursday 2nd November 2017 5:13 pm
I live in a world full of people
but yet i feel so alone , like no one is around
No one to talk to about the scary thoughts that run in my head
No one to run to when i feel down
They say I have lots of friends but really I have no one
No one but myself and these scary thoughts
But I have to put on this fake smile and go on
When in reality I just wanna scream and cry.......
Thursday 2nd November 2017 5:13 pm