Battle of our chests

There is a war rallied between our hearts:

some people say love,

other people play love.

 

But when life becomes a game,

when words can only be spoken by characters,

when breath can only be projected by theatre

then I lose myself...so you lose me....and I risk losing you....

And the curtains fall shut -

Shows over.

And the dice stops rolling -

We lost the bet.

 

But life cannot take over either

because the love has gotten lost in the in between,

on this liminal bridge.

 

There is gunfire from your lips,

rifles forming the ends of your fingers,

Grenades burning in your blush.

Do you love me?

Or do you love to play love?

Because I once did, but look where it got us...

It hurts.

 

Every time we hold hands my fingers bleed

And when our bodies come together they could light a match,

sweat petrol.

We are dangerous!

 

And I constantly feel this burning in my chest

as though a forest fire is spreading from rib to rib,

tearing my insides down.

I am sure you buried an explosive somewhere behind my soft tissues of fat.

I can feel it ticking when you leave me

and I constantly feel it - may - just - burst.

 

But I'm tired of feeling this way,

I'm tired of the games we play.

I'm tired of treading the minefield in your chest,

of staring at the gun barrels in your face,

of feeling the battle wounds engraved onto my skin by your sharp tongue.

I'm tired of this!

 

Because the only way to win is to lose all feeling...

And I'm not a carnival mask, an elegant performance, a porcelain chess piece.

Feeling is what keeps me human.

But does it keep me sane?

 

 

 

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Alexandra Parapadakis

Sun 12th Jun 2016 13:52

Thanks for your interpretation and advice Graham :)

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Graham Sherwood

Thu 2nd Jun 2016 11:20

The description of an aggressive partner via a series of firearms and munitions is a clever idea.

For me the poem is in three parts, consequences, reasons and outcomes.

The expression "some people say love, other people play love" could almost be a strapline for the whole piece and I would have liked it repeated at the end as well.

Good work again Alexandra. Keep posting!

Graham

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