Poetry Blogs (2014, relationship)
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You think that your losing me
But I’m losing part of you
You think that your hurting me
But it’s me who’s hurting you
You think you can save me
But it’s hard for you to do
Because I cause so much agony
And it’s me doing that to you
I fear for the future
I fear that you will leave
It feels you’ve lost the sparkle
And no longer believe
I know you reassure me
And there’s things you n...
Thursday 30th July 2020 9:47 am
Trying hard to save me
Fighting hard to stay
Sorting through the feelings
That never go away
I may look harder from the outside
But no-one sees the me within
Cuz if they saw for just one moment
They would see I’m crumbling
I need help to get me through
Another day of feeling blue
Of feeling weak, I’m not that strong
Of feeling who I am is wrong
But I’ll get through
I know it’s tr...
Monday 27th July 2020 1:48 pm
The man who
Can be worn
Like the thorn,
The man who
Smiles with truth,
Holds your hand
The man who
Who doesn't taste like sin
The man who
Walks lighter than falling pins,
Whose shape is vein thin,
Who fits in
The man who
Will slip in,
Who you can slip on,
Who can be worn,
See you wan
Tuesday 23rd June 2020 2:21 pm
LOVE IN PRINCIPAL’S CLASS
Bae, its Principal’s lecture,
Lets not make a single gesture.
Unlike others*, here we are not free,
And crazy as we used to be.
Bae, so don’t feel sad,
I’m always with you like your dad.
The weather became cold,
As it starts raining bold,
And by the same cause,
The class was paused.
And now we got the chance
To share smil...
Thursday 30th April 2020 8:52 am
Coastlines guard us along our way,
As we gaze and point to places during our stay.
Cold and fresh as we were weeks away from May,
"I love you" were the only things I could say.
Losing bags with cards for the year,
One too many expensive glasses of wine and beer.
Canvases and paintings in the rear,
You are my only peer.
I took you to a special place,
Saturday 18th April 2020 2:55 pm
and I wonder if there's someone else that you wish was giving you the attention that I am
and I wonder if you are giving someone else the attention that I wish you would give me
and I wonder why this imbalance follows me
always always nipping at my heels
and yet somehow manages to also remain
two steps ahead of me
this imbalance of desire
Monday 17th June 2019 12:11 am
Meet me in the
of eternal bliss,
where we will
confirm our love
with a virtual kiss.
Saturday 11th May 2019 7:51 pm
it hurt so much
to breathe, to think, to laugh
to smile, to worry
it’s almost like you’ve taken out
all the good parts, the sad parts
leaving me incredibly bare and numb.
i feel restless, raw
open and exposed.
like i have no barriers, no protection
just sitting there with weeping wounds
and a broken heart
brittle as my nails
wrecked and sharply cut...
Friday 10th May 2019 6:15 pm
To win my heart, cross my roads
To get my love, you knock my doors
Let's to start, to earn cruise
To build a nest within love rose
Adore you much, looking forward
To keep in touch, even one word
Eager to fly, to reach sward
Where your face, shines on board
You're the star, you're my sun
You're in heart, the only one
Grow love seed, before ge...
Tuesday 5th February 2019 2:41 pm
Two waves in the sea
Two branches of the tree
Two wings of the bee
These are you and me
In everywhere I go
I keep your love to grow
All over my heart's show
Your eyelashes and brow
Certainly, I can see
One heart not a three
Follow me, or feel free
I got your heart's Key
Sunday 3rd February 2019 7:25 pm
Today, we're together
Tomorrow, we're apart
As Cinema .. as the Theater,
An End for the Start
Thanks to God for Life
To work .. earn and learn
Pray .. to keep Survive
Happiness to reach and Yearn
Surely, you're assigned
For a role to achieve a goal
Unless you've that mind
You need to heal your soul
Saturday 2nd February 2019 5:56 pm
“To do or not to do”, her daily instruction
I should always obey, to avoid reaction
She believes I'll remain in a weak construction
Wants to be retained in her falling section
Eyes, ears and tongue, three sources to act
Depending on brain, to judge it in the heart
She is herself leader, no love in her chart
“Practical in reality”, She said. This is a fact
Saturday 2nd February 2019 2:29 pm
You are the art of my dreams.
The muse of my thoughts
and the sweetness of my soul.
a gentle aura surrounding mine
sending messages through the skin and bone
what a funny way to live,
what a peaceful time
to be alive.
to dare what is romance between the reality of life and visions
to desire not only a life
but two paths in one.
-G. N. D.
Friday 14th September 2018 2:25 am
Ive changed all the locks and the ways to my heart
Ive patched up the holes you tore all apart
Repainted the lies you captured me with
Remodeled my life from pain to pure bliss
I no longer miss you, I pity your soul
Ive worked long and hard to patch up these holes
The space is all new
I can rent it out
This space is all mine and what Im about
Your key will not work
Friday 31st August 2018 10:10 pm
“Ich du, Ich du!”
Those words meant nothing to you.
Nought but bindings
Tethering me to you.
Your loving face turned hard,
Your gaze hurting me like barbs.
“Ich du, Ich du!”
The words that bind me to you.
Your ghastly glare
Evoking within me so much fear.
“I truly do love you dear,”
Barely but a long-lost whisper in my ears.
Your gentle touch tur...
Monday 18th June 2018 3:41 pm
Loves just a feeling
It often changes
It may go quick and crash
Or keep you waiting
It's a good high
But the fall is pretty harsh
I wouldn't want to get hurt
I'm not too fond of goodbyes
People say I haven't tried it
And thus should with them
For that I spew excuses
And yet they still go at it
I don't believe anything could ever last...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:43 pm
You're so annoying
And so distasteful
You won't stop talking
I hate you very much
When the rain has finally come
You'll sparkle like the sun
And when I'm working
You'll go…right ahead and call me
You drive me crazy
I think I've gone insane
I just want to be lazy
But you'll drag me out to play
People say I ain't perfect
But you'll ...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:39 pm
Yknow its been awhile
Since ive dreamt a good dream
Most are just filled with running
Abuse drowned out by screams
And ok maybe this was not too different
Here, I ran from screams too
But the most significant
Was that I didn't bother to leave you
It's been awhile, yknow
Since I've typed out my feelings
I don’t know why I stopped
It must be the ...
Friday 30th March 2018 4:36 pm
He made our argument physical again tonight
Every time I think it's the last
Leaving him isn't an option
Plus, where would I go?
My heart can't take the cruel words or pain
Eventually, I'll learn how to cope.
Thursday 1st March 2018 5:24 am
When it was discovered, we recoiled
Out of doubt, out of fear
We focused on the opinions of others
Instead of what we thought
When I let our secret fly free,
I was shown acceptance and love
Hope blossomed like a cactus flower
It would be okay.
He was capricious, of two minds
One day yes, the next was no,
He produced a name, but renounced his love
Tuesday 20th February 2018 12:17 am
A house is built from bricks and glued
Together to create shelter renewed
A skeleton protecting organs hidden inside,
Waiting for a family to live and reside
Seasons pass and storms blow by
Damage accrues despite how hard it tries
To keep flawless and perfect, societies dream
From beauty to beast, becomes unseen
"I am ugly, marred, broken- why bother trying?"
My purpose is futile, my fut...
Tuesday 13th February 2018 8:09 pm
I think I hung myself in your tears
Yeah, the other day I realised
One noose, one tear drop - same shape.
I choked on the salt of it
eternally thirsty now
When they fell from your eyes
they looked like showers of broken glass
How I wished I could have swallowed that instead
I think that would hurt less
I’ve got 6 bruises, 7 cuts, 3 scars
I’m still counting.
Sunday 11th February 2018 2:21 am
It's the little things you do
The way you say my name
The way you smile at me
How easily I can laugh with you
No matter how sad I am
The way you believe in me
The way you hold me up
How strong you can be
To lift up and support me
The way we kiss after a fight
The way we grow together
How beautiful you make me feel
On my ugliest days
It's all these things,
All these reasons,
Tuesday 5th December 2017 5:42 pm
My hands are patterned by ambitions,
these lines on my skin are wishes,
palms marked like the sky after a shooting star
and shining when they interlace with your fingers,
your skin's wrinkles and crinkles.
The crevices of our skin do not match or meet
the way coloured paths on a map synchronise and intercross,
We are separate pieces of meat
Monday 31st July 2017 2:40 pm
Temporary wounds did form,
Above the ones I had ignored.
And the thoughts you had bestowed in me,
Are nothing but a memory.
Where you were weak, he is so fierce,
And where you lack, he comes in first.
The boy I thought I craved before,
Is nothing but a closing door.
Tuesday 14th March 2017 5:09 am
We were like ‘yin and yang’,
‘Spick and Span’
- Hot pot, big pan -
slick and tanned!
The could we can -
sweet, sweet like marzipan!
The kind of love that makes you FAT,
that attracts the sniff sniffing rats.
- Rap! Trap! Rat! The blind bats! -
But I walked and you ran,
I was kicked like tin-can
then you thought you were tin-man,
cause you forgot your heart ...
Tuesday 21st February 2017 11:28 am
She said she wanted to go home
he replied "not now"
The look on her face
said there was more
going on than just her words
were they fighting
was she just tired
She put her fork down
and gazed out the window
He continued to eat
like he did not notice
With no words
she got up and went
to the ladies room
He took out his cell phone
and began ...
Monday 30th January 2017 9:54 pm
Eyes and lips
blossom from your carved face,
sugar skull, sherbert fizz.
To Mr, from Mz,
we really wanted to fuck this.
Turned my brain insane,
my tongue inside
Caught in fog,
in haze, like cloudy lemonade;
a gaze, let's misbehave.
I won't make it.
this forever pretence,
can't do more pretend.
Take a hot hit,
bit by bit,
Monday 12th December 2016 4:31 pm
Where were the words
why couldn't we talk
So much I wanted to say
but the words got caught in my throat
Why did the magnet push us apart
when there were words to say
Could it be different at a different time
was it just the timing
I don't know
So off beat
We couldn't get the timing
of the dance
Yet the magnet d...
Friday 9th December 2016 3:21 am
Have you seen her eyes?
Like searching grass stains
Reaching, reaching up the bark
Of her rough touch, rough hands.
Legs like hay, the hairs like needles,
Could lose thoughts in them, do you understand?
Oh, have you seen her eyes?!
Like dancing lily pads,
I once tried to catch them in the lake.
Silly mistake, oh big mistake
Because she can be a swamp,
Her pull like...
Thursday 10th November 2016 5:27 pm
Another one from the past, circa 2000. Definatly a bit teenage angst-y, and funnily i can't remeber who this was written about now. They must have been important at the time though!
The feeling in my chest,
Is one I’ve felt before.
All so easy to notice,
Not so easy to ignore.
It tightens up your breathing,
Chills the veins into your heart,
Was that my soul just leaving?
Saturday 15th October 2016 12:24 pm
Call me the doormat,
The infestation of rats,
The ‘oh she ain’t all that’,
Call the kettle black!
Call me the diva, the princess, the moan bag,
The emotional one, oh isn’t it sad?
The hot head who can only nag nag nag,
That period trainwreck – a handful for a lad.
Call me whatever deflects most from what reflects
When you stand by the mirror and boast,
Thursday 29th September 2016 3:40 pm
If you showed me you loved me in return
If you can handle who I give to you
My love would engulf you
Physically, emotionally, mentally, passionately
I'd be all for you.
If you gave me your body I'd nourish it
My love would be the kind
To push you to the sky
Wrap you in warm golden light
Numbing all senses
Except highlighting your happiness's...
Monday 19th September 2016 6:56 am
I think I’m addicted to acting the way,
Behaving the way,
No, I never meant to-
No, I never intended to-
didn’t set out to break your heart
I think that it came naturally to me...
Snapping those heart strings it’s what
It’s what I’ve always done best.
Affection is a weapon they say,
Charm is a murderer they say,
The blood you lose...
Wednesday 9th March 2016 7:54 pm
The heat of a sultry summers day
and the news wasn’t good,
you were going away.
Vow’s made by the lovers brook
are just trickling memories
of a love that you took.
A heart that once was full of life
is now but an empty shell
on the edge of a knife.
A vignette, closing in on a world,
as into the deep dark abyss
my mind was hurled.
Dreams and g...
Wednesday 17th June 2015 11:43 am
There is me...lying.
Not lying like you say.
Lying on the floor, lying like I say.
Begging, weeping, asking.
You carnival figure, you.
You war hero, you.
You champion, you.
One leg propped upon my stomach.
Where are your gold stamps, your badges, your medals?
The trophy you stand on is all battered.
You have laid me out on the floor, the doormat
Withholding the welcome sign.
You roll m...
Tuesday 21st April 2015 9:59 pm
The way your hands attach themselves to my body
The way your lips stick to mine
That breif moment we stop and look deep into eachothers eyes
Trying to find forever
Love is mixed
Along with friendship
Together it made a clear view of our future
Take my hand
Take a risk
Lets start off our life
Repopulate the world
Make it our ow...
Tuesday 20th January 2015 4:42 pm
Inspired by Nirvana's song 'heart-shaped box'. The line "I want to eat your cancer" was so strong and powerful, really got me thinking
I want to eat your cancer,
Sip your darkness, your evils,
Drink from your chalice of disease,
Soak up your pain, bathe in it, wash in it...
So that you are dry.
And when you are too dry;
Powdery, breaking, crumbling,
Ill offer you a dri...
Saturday 13th December 2014 5:15 pm
The trees, so hidden well by thickened wood,
While senses hide behind the deep despair,
He, ridiculed by those that can’t but should
And persecuted by those that once did care.
As fingers point and clone the loaded gun;
They choose a victim crying on his knees,
To watch him beg for solitude, in one
And disregard his perennial pleas.
The rights and wrongs of progress blister quic...
Monday 22nd April 2013 5:28 pm
Sunday 7th April 2013 8:10 pm
Friday 1st March 2013 5:42 am
Just audio at the moment!
Monday 20th February 2012 12:14 am
So now you came up after calling and texting me,
almost begging me to be your friend.
We talk at my door for half an hour,
then I feel compassion and let you in.
You regret being silly and I do being nasty,
tell me how did it come to all this?
We manage to sort this madness out and become friends.
Is this what happens when we break up,
Saturday 8th October 2011 8:34 pm
from my eyes,
a flare of innocence
my tainted bitter roots
grip, twist and tighten
to save myself,
I cause pain
I do not feel it.
lying now in a frame
light muted by curtains,
still in my absolution.
Wednesday 6th April 2011 7:03 am