I attempted suicide,

But I didn't die,

Not losing my life,

But what it means to be alive.

I'm drained of all motivation to continue,

But also of all strength to follow through,

I shouldn't be here,

It hurts, but it's true.

My days feel so long,

My existence feels so wrong,

I can't look at life the same,

Because I simply don't belong.

I can't be happy,

Or even feel sad,

It seems all of life lost the luster,

That it had once had,

I should break down and cry,

But I've lost all will to live,

Indifferent to good or bad,

It just is what it is.

 

-tae