This is me

forgetting you

I still can’t quite believe it’s true

It hasn’t been

too long ago

when I stood up and let you know

I wanted you 

to hear from me

that I loved you, you said:

“You see,

I’ve known a while

it’s obvious 

it’s not your fault, not mine, but “us”

is not something that’s happening 

my words are painful, but they’re real

I’m sorry, I apologize

I know exactly how you feel

so don’t say it’s okay for you

I know you’re lying, it’s not true”

 

 You said:

“here, try this, distance helps”

here comes the panic, begged and prayed

“I can’t make love turn into hate”

“You haven’t even tried it yet”

I should have told you that I did

how often did I lie awake

thinking of things that I should hate

about the way you handle things

that you chose her because she brings

you more joy than I ever could

quote by my thoughts, you never would

tell me in person, I’m aware

but I’m not stupid, if you care

that’s something that I told you, too

“might look like it, but I’m no fool

Have not been blind, I’m just in love

with you, now, that’s the hardest part

I don’t want things to become weird

between us, when you talk to me”

You said:

“don’t worry, it won’t be”

That’s what you promised, 14 days

since then I’ve barely seen your face

I know you try

do you deny

that nothing’s quite the same today

as it was only yesterday 

you rarely text, are you afraid

my love may grow, well, you’re too late

a million stings won’t change the way

I feel for you, and that’s okay