All the goodbyes Ive never said

They haunt me, like some unfinished business. 

Im always wondering who is away from me, that is not supposed to be. 

Who did I cast away after prides were hurt?

Where are those who hesitantly walked away, while they looked back and noticed I wasnt following?

 

Oh, who are you kidding?

You give way too many chances. 

Face it.

With some, you probably didnt deserve, or know how to appreciate, the level of imperfect loyalty they were ready to give you. 

They were better off. 

You are a nice girl, but you dont always get it right. 

With others, you give way too many chances, and what isnt there, just isnt there. 

Face it.

Some of the one's you darted an ignore-goodbye at, were toxic assholes who didnt have enough redeeming qualities. 

In God's eyes, yes. 

But you are not God. 

And you have a limited resource of sanity, and a generally healthy level of self-respect. 

Some people may not have deserved the boot, but they didnt deserve to be followed either. 

You let them walk away, because at the end of the day, it was okay.