One time in a waking hour
I decided to take a long hot shower.
and to my suprise as i scrubbed,
I saw my knees, were red with blood.
Being dizzy from the night before
I couldnt recall the time i last snored,
"what happened last night?"
I dont remember..
Why my breast was bruised,
and my nails were shattered.
I only saw the day before,
because nighttime whistles, but then distorts.
I put my head down,
while the water drip-dropped.
I then layed in the tub,
while my mind flip-flopped.
There were boys there right?
I tried to see.
When in fact blood dripped from my pink panties.
Across the tub there was a stain,
I wish i could remember
I was so fucking drained.
The drain washed away all this red,
Why were their past voices whispering in my head?
I put my head up to the water,
As i tried to remove this mental stain,
I finally turned the water off.
I stepped out of the tub,
and dried my skin till soft.
I looked in the mirror
and gasped at a sight.
I started to tear up,
it looked like i put up a fight.
My chest was a water colored canvas board, of mixed up colors.
While black was engorged.
My arms were red with little spots,
like little brownish chicken pox.
Fingerprints were there.
I wept in pain,
i just couldnt stare.
I dressed myself in sweats and socks,
trying to erase these voices that movked.
I went to my room and closed the door,
hiding from my mothers mighty roar.
4 a.m and soaked in questions, when will my mind rest?
I cant describe the memories I have,
reminscing just hurts so fucking bad.
But i will say out loud, that yes i was raped,
by multiple men, who tried to decide my fate.
This hurts my heart,
and mind aswell.
I cant even begin to tell this story