Highs and Lows, Frogs and Toads
5th grade was my downfall
Anxiety coupled with A.D.D
Made for the perfect broken marriage.
6th grade was calm.
I had everything under control
And I was taking medication
But 7th grade was morbid.
One only the devil could produce,
Had arrived with the diseased name
8th grade was the year Depression made friends
And the worst friend
Could only be my mind.
Depression and my mind became best friends
My mind’s happiness was fading
Being over run with Depression’s idea of happy.
Before I knew it,
My mind was no longer mine
But “my” mind was Depression’s.
A corrupt image of what she wanted.
I lost control.
9th grade was Depression showing her true, grotesque form.
Who was once my best friend,
Someone I told everything to,
Became my worst enemy,
Someone I can never avoid.
Depression would whisper to me.
“What a sad, lonely human you are”
With a voice so soft and sweet,
You would never think her words would be knives,
Stabbing the very essence of your soul.
Slow and agonizing pain was all I could feel.
Days grew longer,
But nights were never long enough.
Mania and Depression soon controlled my mind
Filled with madness and distress
I would do nothing.
9th grade also comes with
My highs and my lows.
Mostly lows as Depression stops by often
Asking to hang out with my mind.
My mind is too forgiving
And always accepts Depression’s proposals
Leaving me numb and apathetic.
My highs are minimal
And are mainly mediums
My highs are the peaks of mountains
The ones you finally finish climbing.
But my lows are the sudden drops.
Causing you to plummet onto jagged rocks
Just to start climbing
Again and again
In a never ending cycle of Depression’s game.
The sad fact is that 10th grade won't be better.
My life has become a drop slide
The ride is fast and terrifying as you wait for the
Drop in tone,
Drop in grades,
Drop in mood,
Drop in time outside my room,
Drop in hours spent with friends.
“Drop everything and just fall”
Iconic words that Depression would say
Right before my breakdowns.
I wish I could just fall
And for once not get up
To climb again and again,
But to lay down and sleep
Just for a little bit
Just for a second of