So I've thought out this letter for so long as the times have changed my words have too everything changes but my mind this windowless prison permanent guard oh shadowed screw

Understand ..This was carefully planned 

 

I  did consider all options fooling myself..knowing other options weren't an option 

 

Constantly fighting and am tired I'm  locked away double pad locked and it's cold in here nothing you could have done 

I don't belong here

 

I' m sorry I tried I tried and tried now I'm tired

 

Don't blame yourself please I know this will hurt but one day I hope you find peace knowing this was my choice 

Please honour my decision 

Remember my voice 

Cherish your life as I struggled to live mine

 

Every day I tried to mask my truth my heart it hurts it hurts so deep my head feels broken 

Its unbearable 

Irreparable 

Just know that this was my path 

Please live your life if not for you for me 

By doing that you set me free 

And I will guide you 

These are my only wishes 

Your acceptance your forgiveness 

I took with me my beautiful memories 

Until we meet again please please

 know that when you read this I will not be suffering 

No more pain