Here I am losing, 

again. 

The moment I naively denied, 

came. 

You said you don't want to see, 

more of me.

The words you typed, 

should set me free. 

 

I only feel deep pain. 

 

Should have known...

before. 

But I didn't see, 

just adore. 

Wasn't able to recognize, 

how fucked up you really are.

Memoring is the worst, 

when did we get this far?

 

Only feel deep pain. 

 

I would take every, 

insult. 

I would erease all my, 

words. 

I can not hide,

still want you by my side. 

Even though I know, 

it costs me every bit of pride. 

 

Feel deep pain.

 

I am young mostly, 

stupid. 

Willing to take the, 

hit. 

I never complained but I should, 

about your mood. 

Now I find in myself for soul, 

an only food: 

 

Deep pain.