December 21st
Everything goes
and we bury this thought
within us
walking down the unremarkable pavement
covered in leaves
like a year's worth of paperwork,
to-do lists and
unfinished poems
breathing to heaven as we go
while the buildings peek from clouds
and the winter sun
polishes the world
reminding us beauty can be found at any time
If you can stay clear headed
enough to find it
so you stop for coffee on James street
and watch the passers in heavy coats
and you try being mindful
but begin to wonder
if you’re halfway through all the coffee
you will drink in your life
while watching the waitress
in a snowglobe of light
and dust motes
wiping the tables
as the radio sings
I’ll Be Home For Christmas
and the old man
in the table next to you
rubs his palm along the crease
of his newspaper
and for some reason
you begin to think of your father
in tears at the kitchen sink
the morning after your mother died
holding the breakfast plate she left
not knowing she wouldn’t be returning
that day
and you consider
how far we’ve buried ourselves
to have no control
of our thoughts
or tears
on a bright day as this
as angels hang from the clock
which says 11.12
and outside everything continues
in that way that it does
as you sit back and drink your coffee
and open a book of poems
by a Russian poet
who shot himself in the heart
when he was younger
than you're now
and outside the sky is white grey
and threatens to snow,
blank like the final pages of a book
or the start of new one.
Tom Harding
Mon 24th Dec 2018 23:35
Thank you all for the wonderful feedback