i am consumed by my own thoughts.

stuck with no way out of my own mind. i wish i could escape it.

how does someone get to this point? 

 

i look for help in the wrong places.

the few people i seek

don't hear me. 

 

there are people in this world who need to hear that they are doing a good job.

its like being eaten alive slowly.

because rarely does the person you want to remind you, reminds you. 

 

i ask myself everyday, "why do i seek assertiveness?"

does it have to do with confidence? could it be mental illness? do i or should i talk to a professional about this?

i know it's not healthy to think this way all the time. 

what do i lack of that i am not as strong-willed as i wish i was.

 

i have to rememeber everyone deals with their own demons as best they can. maybe i should try harder. maybe i haven't realized i am a strong individual that has the power to overcome anything i put my mind to.

 

i will overcome this fucking dark cloud man.