I lay here alone at night not cause you asked it of me.
Alone I stay Out of my desire for you.
I choose not to stray however misguided I my be.
I laugh at myself cause you don’t feel that way for me.
You’re wrapped up in feelings for another.
Why do I test myself so hard.
The only answer I can think of would be is to prove to myself I am worthy.
Knowing I can pass any test you might try to throw at me.
With out fear that I would ruin what my heart really does want.
I could give myself to you completely.