I lay here alone at night not cause you asked it of me. 

Alone I stay Out of my desire for you.  

I choose not to stray however misguided I my be. 

I laugh at myself cause you don’t feel that way for me.

You’re wrapped up in feelings for another. 

Why do I test myself so hard. 

The only answer I can think of would be is to prove to myself I am worthy.

Knowing I can pass any test you might try to throw at me.

With out fear that I would ruin what my heart really does want. 

I could give myself to you completely.