Dark

 

It was late and dark

I was restless, inexplicably so

I wanted to be out

and in the night

I sat in secluded silence

unable to decide or reach out

I needed to be unfettered

utterly alone and

unencumbered

I took off all my clothes

nothng remained to adorn me

I was naked from head to foot

Slowly, assuredly I walked

silently to the door

The air was balmy as it

was summer and fine

Past midnight I stepped

out into the garden with

a sense of embarrassment

and trepidation

to a welcoming air which

caressed me me touching

every part of my nudity

I walked cautiously into the

darkness which embraced me

It held me as if it were a greeting

I stood still savouring

my presence as a part of creation

joyful and at peace with all

about me

I loved the earth beneath 

the soles of my feet and the

sense of impending excitement

and sensuality

I was aroused in a way

not experienced before

It lasted for only minutes

before I returned indoors

unobserved

It had been my secret, 

moments of huge elation

I was refreshed and slept well

I ejaculated all in an intensity

of immense relief

A time not forgotten and

often revisited

It was years ago