Thought it was time,
I told you what I really feel.
So I verbally kicked you,
And you keeled over.
But like all cassanovas upright and sober
You are my strongest vessel,
So on all fours I begged a clover
Of emotion from you.
So rare.
But nothing.,
No impact, made no difference
Your armour suited,
Intact.
Your anvil broke my back
You swine.
Love and hate on both hands
Love and hate at the same time
Pleasure and pain
All your dominions should be mine
You Devil in disguise
But they never are
And lucifer would be wise
To hide behind your eyes
So why a devil of a lover, attractive?
why, the polar opposite,
Of what a girl should arc and protract with.

I offered you all.
you- Nothing.
turned my fingers over
found empty psalms of you
flailed arms, Thrown band of gold,
raked this holy zoo of home
Burned your metaphoric clothes.
In rituals mouthed ‘I do’
so often tried to shake .
To disconnect you.
To e mail, block you,
To un-join, to erase to blot you .

You keep coming back.

Over minefields my mantra
I continue to tread, on track,
when it hurts.
and what’s more
your unsaid is the worst.
I know I’m never first,
In thought,
Too many ladies,
on your collision course .
you devil! you swine! stop.being.mine
you.devil!, you swine.
stop.
being mine