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Growing Flowers By Candlelight

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Ambition expressed in the raise of an eyebrow.

History yet to be formed in the eyes.

The lifting of a neck and turn of a head

following a Mother’s voice.

 

The tiniest grip on an oversized finger,

an instinctive need for security.

 

Filling a mind with nonsense words,

hoping something sticks.

 

The wonder at disappearing, appearing faces.

A reaction - all gums and tongue –

a smile to dissolve.

 

The waggle of a toy emits squeaks to delight,

to mollify before feeding, before sleep.

 

And how the breathing continues, hushed,

from day into night,

each inhale,

each exhale,

to put a new parent’s mind at ease.

 

Then a pause.

A falter to the pattern.

A slight whimper, then back

to snow landing on wood.

 

And what dreams do flowers grown

by candlelight dream?

Blurred renderings of patternless people?

Distorted shapes and wonderings?

 

Or just safety, realised

in a Father’s arms, looking

into borrowed eyes, satisfied

the light is sufficient.

◄ A Ghost-Boned Wet Dream

Caroline ►

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Steve Regan

Mon 23rd Jul 2012 16:10

Beautiful and affecting, John.

The line

'And what dreams do flowers grown

by candlelight dream?'

has a strange power, coming where it does in the poem, and I can understand why you have distilled some of it for the title.

Even childless people such as myself - perhaps especially us - cannot fail to be moved by this.

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Cynthia Buell Thomas

Sat 17th Mar 2012 17:51

Lovely to begin, and lovelier with each ensuing word, a capture of baby-ness to thrill the heart. 'snow landing on wood' is an image in a million. I feel blessed to share this poem.

P.S. (after reading comments) And I see I'm not alone.

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John Togher

Sun 11th Mar 2012 16:04

Thanks for feedback. I've edited it slightly after looking at it again. Good insight Julian, you're right about the 'up', now removed.

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Jon

Sun 11th Mar 2012 10:47

Enjoyed this at the Tudor John and also on here.Agree with Laura about the 'snow landing on wood' line. One to get lost in,methinks.

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Julian (Admin)

Sun 11th Mar 2012 10:35

There is something of Thomas Gray's famous elegy in those two, well-chosen, first lines, though here it is expressed as potential potential, ratgher than Gray's past potential, as it were.
I like the parallel of the parent's (inhale/exhale) and child's anxieties (tiniest grip, et al).
There is a subtext here of the question, who is reassuring whom? Though more could be made of that in the last stanza, in my opinion, by removing the word 'up, to leave the ambivalence.
Lovely stuff. Are you perhaps related to the John Togher who...?

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Dave Bradley

Fri 9th Mar 2012 13:27

There is a wonderful delicacy about this, John - not true of all your stuff (-:. Loved it.

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Lynn Dye

Fri 9th Mar 2012 10:01

Beautiful poem about new parenthood, just love it, John, and the title is inspired, methinks.

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Ann Foxglove

Thu 8th Mar 2012 07:16

I like this and was going to pick out the phrases Laura has chosen for special mention. The snow on wood - I'll always think of that now when it snows! I thought as I read that the poem improved as it went along and on reading the comments I would agree with Yvonne about the baby words spoiling it slightly in the first half.

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Isobel

Wed 7th Mar 2012 13:13

Welcome to parenthood John. You will probably find much of your future poetry to be inspired by your children.

This is beautiful. I remember holding my son and thinking many of the same things. x

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Laura Taylor

Wed 7th Mar 2012 13:05

Well it's about time John! ;)

'snow landing on wood' - just beautiful, exactly how it is. 'flowers grown by candlelight' is also just lush.

Lovely :)

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Yvonne Brunton

Wed 7th Mar 2012 12:35

I like this. You have captured the hopes and dreams of a new parent. A serious emotion. I think I would have left out all the goo-goo baby words as for me they detract from the intense feelings of the poem.(only an idea) X X

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John Togher

Wed 7th Mar 2012 11:35

First poem about the baby. I don't normally write personal stuff, but felt compelled...

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