Just so You Know

The day you left, 

it rained for three fucking days

and man,

you still wouldn't wash away.


So I prayed out loud to the girls

with more grass

than that green grass

that we used to make love in.


I waited there sea sick,

in sea of emerald green

swaying back and forth

all around me.


Just then, the air picked up,

making the wheat fields arch 

and this fire sign ignite.


I could smell you

coming off my skin

the salt of teenage sweat

and freshly tarred summer streets.

held still in thick currents


Wrapped up in dangerous winds,

I was sitting in a green field,

each wisp of summer air

mocking me

as trees bent over 

and rooftops began to sprawl out

piece by piece

they broke away

leaving everything familiar behind

the same way you broke away

piece by piece

leaving nothing behind

for me

to hold on to



The wind tossed my hair,

stinging my cheek

the way it had

when we would roll the windows down 

and dare each other to drive fast.


No faster than that.


All those times we dared each other not to brake.

Not to slow down

Not to stop.


Never to stop


Even with the wind slowing down

I do not dare stop.

It is cold and dark out now,

the chill of night is setting in

but all I can feel is the setting summer sun deep within my skin


Again, I can still smell you with each inhale.


The green field we rolled around in a season before 

still ripe on my grass stained clothes.


And I fear that

You just won't leave me alone