Horsebolter
I met the darkest queen of deceivers
when I had fooled myself into drinking with you
sidewinding as you did into my privacy
like a desert rattler breaking its sand cover to claim a victim
sly and slippery
and now that my awareness has been fully illuminated
all that I curse myself for
of both love worst and love wanting
stand arm in arm tweedle dee and tweedledum posers
dancing in the coldest light of all of my days
who the fuck was it that had stamped your right of passage
into my inner sanctuary?
where I had lain down in the most stupidest of all submissions
whoever allowed your clawed hands
to explore the cartography of my flesh
and let you heat seek my chosen to be witheld desires
who now wont let me rewind back through
the closing hourglass of the past
how I wish that my conception had been denied
but had I been blessed with both ironclad foresight and hindsight
I could have ambushed your beginning
as it grew to stake its claim on the ownership of myself
so that before you had pressed
the destroying button of your determination to fuck my life up
I could have jumped the starting pistol and gone on ahead
waiting for you to cross the line
and slammed the door of square one
in your supercilious over the top assured face
leon stolgard
Fri 19th Apr 2024 11:23
Thanks Bethany
the title is two parts of the well known proverb
' locking the stable door after the horse has bolted '
that I used in a way of just making the title more appealing
and in this poem the full proverb though not used in words
but in its meanings comes into play
referring to the fact that the troubled lover having mistakenly allowed the troubling lover into his life and is now sorry for having done so and is paying the price
whereas if he had ' locked ' the ensuing problems out of his life from the start instead of leaving the ' door ' to his lfe open allowing the troubling lover to run free and riotously through what life he had left
hope that explains my unusual title as much as I hope that my thanks to all who have liked this poem are worthy of being accepted