My heart is shattered,

Withered and scattered,

Tried picking up the pieces but in the end it doesn't matter,

I'm still alive,

But I feel dead inside,

The overwhelming pain is what I'm always trying to hide,

My mind is always racing with obsessive thoughts,

Betrayed and left in destitute to rot,

This world is a joke and a moral shit-show,

Turns out my wife is just another fuckin' ho',

I shouldn't of been surprised about the previous line I mentioned,

She did what she did and it certainly got my attention,

No remorse for her actions just more salt on the wound,

I hate the fact that I've been so foolishly marooned,

It's a soul-crushing thing to lose your love and best friend that way,

She's always on my mind and I can't make it go away,

There's that saying "It's better to have loved and lost...",

Was it truly worth it if my soul was the cost?

I'm not so sure when a decade was invested,

She's fucked up in the head cause when she was 7 she got molested,

It didn't happen to me so it's hard to understand,

The fucked up trauma that she experienced first-hand,

It's horrible but that doesn't make her excused,

It just left me lonely and confused,

She's always in my dreams even in my sleep I can't escape,

The torture never stops man I can't get a fucking break,

I hope the future gets better cause right now life feels like hell,

And in the end if it doesn't then fuck it and oh well.

 

BY: JARED HARRIS

NOVEMBER 29, 2021