Stop blaming yourself 

It's her fault the feelings felt 

 

She doesn't know how to love you it seems 

I can't help but want to be in your dreams 

 

I hate her cause she hurt you so 

Now you just can't let this go 

 

I fucked it up its true 

Now I just don't know what else to do 

 

I need to find that special place inside 

The one that wishes you had died

 

I wanna touch that spot 

Clean out your nasty thoughts 

 

I know this isn't right at all

But I couldnt help it I just suddenly fall

 

You will never feel for me the same 

I was to scared to start or finish this game 

 

I am not the most pretty around 

But your eyes are the most beautiful ever found 

 

I would never speak this to your face 

I would love to move at your pace 

 

This is deep secrets I hold tight 

Just like I do you when I dream at night 

 

She was too selfish 

She couldn't have felt this 

 

No one else in the world understands the pushing away 

Even though desperately wanting someone to stay 

 

I can't bare to listen about her 

Cause I desperately wish I was there 

 

I am better at writing my feelings out

Cause speaking out loud fills me with doubt 

 

Friends say don't give up on you 

God if you could only see how badly I never want too 

 

I don't care if I never became your wife 

I just want you in my life 

 

Caught between wanting a change 

But fearing the huge rearrange 

 

If you only knew everything I told you 

Baby it was all so very true 

 

I can't help but wonder if I was to make her jealous

Lord knows there's never gonna be us 

 

She never loved you I know it's true

I can read between every single clue 

 

You never give up on someone you truly love 

It's not gonna fit like a perfect glove 

 

I know I am crazy for feeling this way 

But damn it I just wanted you to stay 

 

If you ever find out about this 

There will be no fixing it 

 

Rather have you as a friend 

Then risk you put a end 

 

My heart out will be poured 

With every click of this keyboard 

 

I know this is all wrong 

Who knew this and go along

 

I am sorry for all this 

I wish you nothing but a life of bliss

 

I am just a crazy girl it's true 

One of which feelings you have have no clue 

 

You did nothing but be yourself 

Lord knows how hard it is to be felt