It doesn't get easier, it never will 

You are gone and the world is remaining still 

All those happy memories even bad ones,  i will hold close

My heart is shattered, my best friend doesn't have a pulse. 

There's so much i want to tell you, so much you need to hear  

The fact that im alone again is enough to trigger the fear

But, i know you would say be strong he doesn't deserve your tears

I cant even look forward to anything in the upcoming years

It's just a reminder that you won't be here

I know you want me to be happy, but how can i be 

The best friend i had for 16 years is no longer with me 

A part of me will always be shattered, I'll never be the same 

Damn, i wish you would just answer when i call out your name 

I wish this never happened to you, i know you didn't want to die 

But when god looked down and saw your tired face, he knew it was time. 

I just shatter at the thought of it being a lifetime. 

 

Vance Adams- 12/20/91-12/15/2019 <3