Unexpected

It was a dark and stormy day

In the pacific northwest

In other words, it was a day much like any other

Autumn leaves coating the wet streets

Fog and mist hanging just below the tops of the trees

Making the skyline look like the lost city of Avalon was appearing from the mountaintops

The soothing sounds of the rain and the river nearby, carrying the rain on its ...

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You Belong…
By my side, forever my love
In my arms, safe and secure
Towering over my kneeling form
At times kneeling for me

I want you…
In my bed, naked and breathless
In my life, a permanent fixture
As my most passionate lover
As my very best friend

You are… 
My friend, my lover, my partner in crime
The one who makes my soul weep
The one who provokes my passions
The ONE who I lo...

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Would I Lie To Me?


Please lie to me, you know me best I'll believe anything you say I have a chance, despite the rest That dream fades with the light of day.

But all you have to do is ask Just go ahead and have no fear Until I lose the fleeting mask And with clear eyes, look in the mirror.

The feelings I have still remain It matters not how much I try To cause myself to ascertain The so...

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When the Dam Breaks

Tears endless and bitter, her pain flows free
The thoughts never stop, so just let her be
To talk just brings pain, and tears anew
Thanks for your concern, but she has to go through
Wanting distraction, craving His touch
Needing the comfort of His arms so much
Denies His presence, her composure reels
Distraction insufficient to the stop the pain she feels
Her one off...

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When I Grow Up

When I grow up

I want to be able to forgive

I want to be able to move on

Of long buried pain and shame

Of past betrayal

of stolen youth and innocence

Most of all, I want to be able to hear someone yell what sounds like an insult

and not flinch

or cringe

or have to fight the urge to go hide in a corner

I want to be able to enjoy the feel of someo...

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What I Want…

Body lain bare before Him, save for the collar He put around my neck, the symbol of my submission.

Soul lain bare before Him, an open book, in need of the type of cathartic release only He can provide.

His hand caressing my cheek, trailing down my face, my neck, my shoulder, tender, sensual, as though cherishing my gift to Him.

The ropes binding my wrists in front of me, m...

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Fighting tears, I let the anger build
I focus on the rage, the hurt, the pain
I let it fester
Until the poison bubbles to the surface
Every little infraction sets me off
A voice, a look, a word
The voices grate, the noises irritate
People asking, ‘are you ok?’
Hell no I’m not okay
Go away, leave me alone
Come closer, hold my hand
I need a hug
I’ll be fine, really
I just need some spac...

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You’s & I’s

You Belong…
By my side, forever my love
In my arms, safe and secure
Towering over my kneeling form
At times kneeling for me

I want you…
In my bed, naked and breathless
In my life, a permanent fixture
As my most passionate lover
As my very best friend

You are…
My friend, my lover, my partner in crime
The one who makes my soul weep
The one who provokes my passions
Th...

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TRUST

The furtive behavior

the secretive mutes

the constant, everpresent, loudly ominous

   bells of the texts

   dings of the messages

      for whom the bell tolls, I wonder

              LIES

          Everpresent phone in hand

          even when we are

                 talking

                 gaming

                 netflixing

                 ….ot...

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Lying in bed on a rainy Sunday afternoon

the clouds forming patterns that beckon to my memories

that call to my longing spirit

The rhythmic sounds of the raindrops against the glass evoking

melodic echoes of a long-forgotten tune

by some fruit and spice duo from before I was born

thrumming through my daydreaming mind

And I think of You.

You, filling my every sense...

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Time Out of Time


Time is my enemy

  I know this now

the seconds

 that never line up

the moments

 that collide

the minutes

that stretch into 

hours

 as pent up pleasures

at last fulfilled in a time

 out of time
      back in time
untouched by time

as close today

as years ago

a portion of time

 immemorial

waiting, hoping for a crack in the

 c...

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For One Who Sees...

to be seen, to be heard, to be understood
to be wanted, NEEDED, cherished
for exactly who and what I am
by one who sees

Who sees the light, and knows the dark
who wants all of me
who NEEDS all of me
who FEEDS my dark, as mine feeds his

To take, to be taken...
The POWER to TAKE his wants, to turn them to NEEDS, MY NEEDS,
the NEED for me..the need to consume and ...

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The soft touch of Daddy’s fingertips
Stroking my face
The lightest press of Daddy’s lips
To my forehead
The gentle caress of Daddy’s hand
Along my hair
The sweet, tender kiss of Daddy’s lips
To my own
All provoke a reaction
I cannot explain
My eyelids flutter closed
My heart skips a beat – or three
A soft sigh escapes my mouth
My body calms – yet excites
I feel safe
I feel comforted
...

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I'm waiting for a message
in a bottle that'll never come
because the sea has dried
to a desert
and the cactus
cuts to the bone
if you get too close

so swim away through the sand
drown in the saline sea
that we made
the shimmering mirage
that together we built
was unveiled
and you can't see the forest you loved
because the trees block your view
break out the axe
chop yourself in t...

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One ring – to symbolize devotion and love for my One
One ring – to symbolize commitment to myself and my journey
One collar – to symbolize my love and submission to Him

Thoughts race
Jumbled
Inside my head
My emotions vacillate
From one extreme to the next
What I’ve wanted so much
Is finally here
Happiness, elation
Tears of joy
Should dominate
My mood but
They switch
On and off
W...

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          YOU

with sunshine beaming from every pore

blinding my eyes to anything outside your corona

Your lush form, outline, radiating with the brightest energy

Your curves beckon, promising a journey too magical for my                                       wanderlust hands to ignore

Your shy smile, dewy, delectable lips whispering silently to my soul “Relax...you're safe with me.....

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Philosophers, writers, and poets alike

tend to view sunsets as endings

You see them often

signaling the denouement

the resolution of the story

Beautiful voices sing melodies with\

a dissonant end about them

But I see sunsets as a beginning

the start of a story

For the sea beckoned with every wave

Her very breath a near whimper of longing

for her distant lover, the ...

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The tears threaten, but they do not come They will not come – no matter how much I desire that catharsis, that release

That He wants them matters not Apparently, for after many efforts No tears arrive – despite my silent pleas

I should, I would, for reasons abound Tears of anger – at self, at fate, At self-defeating prophecy fulfilled

Tears of agony – over love lost Never to be reclaimed ...

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Crucify me, on the waiting cross
Bind me, stone me, call it a loss
My need to save, my desire to steal
Your pain, your grief, your soul to heal

Tortured souls with broken hearts
With buried pain and rage off charts
Afraid of love, refusing to feel
The good, the bad, the unable to heal

I'm drawn to you, like moth to flame
Over and over, the patterns the same
Unable to help, unwilling ...

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Sand castles are built

Grain by grain, molded into

Our wishes and dreams

Often towering

Over our reason, passions

Overwhelm logic

Dreams built too tall will

Crumble under their own weight

Fall back down to Earth

Castles built of air

Of fictional images

Fade to black in time

When the dust settles

And vision again is clear

Waves washed clear the ground

Sa...

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Love… Honest and open From the heart True Given freely Without thought of risk or reward…

Lust… Physical, feral Primal, wild Uninhibited passion An all consuming experience Without consideration of consequence…

Crush… Fantastically fantasizeable Ridiculously unrealistic Voraciously voyeured Poignantly pondered Lusciously longed for…

Pain… Broken vows, heart, promises Betrayed Left behin...

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Night falls
and I think of you
I look at the stars
feel the moonshine on my skin
the rhythm of the waves
rocking on the shore
arouse more than my senses
the night air breathes
its cool cleansing breath
over my sensitized skin
and I feel your touch..
my hands burn with longing
to feel your body under them
my eyes close to the vision
of your body arching below me
taught, bowed in plea...

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A place of peace
a moment of clarity
my haven in this world
where I am free to be
allowed to exist
to be complete
and feel whole
without restriction
remorse or humilation
Open..seen..accepted
dare to hope...loved
HOPE - hateful thing
pure raw emotion
tempered by reality
no less intense
less terrifying
less discomfiting
awkwardly happy
a mild wistful nature
soft bliss, quiet clar...

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Numb, neutral, feeling off
the pain too much to feel
how can this hurt, they scoff
as my senses start to reel
Time alone is time to think
to worry, to brood, to pine
moments of pain begin to link
and I'm anything but fine
Though these scars are twenty years old
they remain unhealed and raw
my world upheaved, my security sold
tossed unwanted to the gaping maw
disowned, forgotten, unlove...

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No Substitute

In the absence
Of His presence
While I’m longing
For His touch

When the pillows
Cease to comfort
And the pain
Is just too much

I turn to one
Who offers freely
Standing by
With open arms

I curl up
Beside him
And attempt to
Hide from harm

This body
Warm and hard
But not enough
Not quite right

I close my eyes
To imagine Him
Lying beside me
In quiet mi...

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There is more to this girl, more to me
than most would ever want, or could even see.
The intellectual, who needs discourse
to let her mind be the driving force.
The sensualist, who needs to feel
shared sensation have a lasting appeal.
The child, who needs to be held and loved
comforted and cared for, not pushed and shoved.
The woman, who needs to be looked in the eye
when met as an equal,...

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This Rose

As the petals of this rose envelope and caress it's secret heart, so your words do mine.

Overwhelmed by the heady essence of the flower as I lower my head to it

Much as my every sense is overwhelmed when our lips meet.

Your touch affects me as the soft rain does the rose, bringing it into full bloom with it's life-giving force.

Carried away by the romance of the moment, I ...

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January Angles

His pain I see so clearly
When others see his smile
His sense of humor but a mask
For inner thoughts so vile

Wrestling with his demons
And ghosts of futures passed
The loss of fantasy and hope
Adds to his pain amassed

Troubled youth and tangled past
Reactions none can see
Emotions lead to terror
Yet he reveals them to me

Control he sees as needed strength
Lest ...

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In His Arms

In His arms I find

Safety  
Comfort  
Escape  
Desire  

The familiarity of

His touch  
His scent  
His heartbeat  
His mind  

My passion builds as I feel

The softness of His skin  
The gentle ripple of His muscles  
The heat of His body  
His quickening breath  

My heart opens and fills with love at

His tight embrace  
His lips on my skin  
His words,...

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I Deserve to Know

“I deserve to know why”

We hear it all the time

when something doesn't go their way

Its only human after all

   to want that closure

How else can they grow?

Oh, but growing is the very last thing on their minds

Wait a minute

All this “they” business

It feels impersonal, and I need to get personal

Let's get real and spit some fucking truth

...

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HOPE

Hope is a hateful thing
Springing eternal
Flying in the face
Of realism
Hope is buoyant, irrepressible
By its very nature
Floating high into the
Stratosphere
At the slightest hint
Of good news
It makes you think
Maybe
Just maybe
Despite reality
Despite what you know
To be true
And solid
And reliable
Concrete
Because who says reality
Always wins, always…
Comes out on to...

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Her Venomous Prince


He enters her life with what she needs most Thoughtful, caring friend with a wounded soul Whispering compliments, banishing ghosts Silvery, forked tongue snakes a path toward his goal

To his tempting web she willingly fled Away from her problem-filled life she ran Only to find his spider’s heart was dead Once trapped in the web, she sees the real man

He stands at a d...

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He Sees...

...a soft, round arm, reaching out
but doesn't know what its about
...a hand, open, grasping, seeking
but fails to notice the tears, always leaking
...himself join with that arm, content and proud
but ignores her needs, and the gathering storm cloud
...the silken fingers caressing his skin
but he cannot see the girl within
...his hand firmly clasping hers, a lifeline
as he l...

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The gentle strength of His arms around me
The hot press of his body
The tension of the moment
The languid look of desire in His eyes
The churning emotions, mingling with desire
The soft, sweet taste of His lips
The moist, hot trail of His mouth down my neck
The sharp intake of breath as His teeth pierce flesh
The painful pleasure as His nails leave their marks
The deep growl of desire fro...

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He appears...and I feel Him...
in every pore, in ever fiber
of my being, I sense Him
my body longs...wants..
craves...hungers..NEEDS
Him
His touch...His kiss...His
everything..to be His
everything
He appears..my wonder..
and my world...expands..
exponentially, and yet
shrinks...narrows..focuses..
on Him...on us...on this..
all consuming NEED
to feel Him
He appears...before my eyes
...

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I was worried, nervous, scared, even

About how you'd react

when you heard

when you knew

when I told you

IF...if...if there wound up being anything to tell

Maybe I was getting ahead of myself

I quite probably was, to be honest

Still

Still, I was worried, you see

Because your feelings matter to me

Not a lot of others do, you know

You, my friend

my confidant

...

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I heard her before I saw her

as is often the case with such things

the familiar, distinctive mewling voice from so long ago

Not hardened or roughened by the years

by the tears

by the frequent deluge of saline rivers flooding over the vocal chords

with every fresh wound

every heartache

every pain

every betrayal

that toughened my exterior

fortified and calcified my s...

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To get away, escape My troubling reality My own doing, it's clear Though in duality

From cold wind and rain Feeling trapped and closed-in To blue skies and openness The absence of din

From tension and stress And work without end To peace love and laughter In the arms of a friend

From where rulebooks and strictures And morals abound To where sensual freedom And pleasures are found

From ...

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The benefits of separation Always have been known To not confuse brings liberation Option of the grown

The ultimate goal, empowerment Freedom from the trap Of love, rejection and regret Throw away the map

Carve your route and forge your path A new direction found Avoiding well-trod misery, wrath And apathetic ground

Pleasure claims what intimacy lacks Still longing for the lost Willing bo...

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Blades

The cold steel
Trails along my skin
Snaking a path
From cheek
To neck
To chest
Shivers race down my spine
As I struggle
To remain still
The sharp edge of the blade
Drawing patterns in my fear
I tremble with anticipation
Passion
Desire
Need
To feel the sharp bite of pain
As steel slices flesh
Just a slight nick
Blood rushes to the surface
Eager to escape the push of my ...

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Wishes on hopes that deflate with the breeze
Longings for things that should not be
A lost soul shining with a light that frees
a spirit from self-induced captivity

A heart barren as Demeter's wintery earth
absent the light that opened its soul
from Hades' realm it awaits her rebirth
A lone shade wandering the paths of sheol

Persephone cursing the seeds she injested
Her choices, mista...

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A Heady Scene...

Soft whispers in blackest night

Gentle caresses, a beautiful sight

His hand on her cheek, trailing around

Stroking her lips, provoking a sound

A small gasp of pleasure, desire, need

A torrent of feelings, where will he lead?

She kneels before him, her fate in his hands

Desperate to please him, his every command

Is hers to obey, her pleasure to serve

F...

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A Day in the Life of Miss Missing You


She Wakes… To the plaintive call of the mourning dove Crying out Its longing Echoing Hers

She Rises… As a phoenix from the ashes As the burning flame of Her desire that consumed Her night, Her dreams, slowly dies to smoldering embers With the chill breeze of morning

She Moves… Achingly aware of every inch of Her flesh Being caressed by the silken fa...

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