Silent Tears
The tears threaten, but they do not come They will not come β no matter how much I desire that catharsis, that release
That He wants them matters not Apparently, for after many efforts No tears arrive β despite my silent pleas
I should, I would, for reasons abound Tears of anger β at self, at fate, At self-defeating prophecy fulfilled
Tears of agony β over love lost Never to be reclaimed The heart doesnβt respond to being willed
Tears of joy β over finding my place Finding a new love, a different love Fulfilled through friendship and submission
Tears of confusion β unsure what to do Where my emotions should go Fear losing myself β my mantra admonition
Tears of frustration β indignation Anger at hypocrisy, lack of integrity Two-faced villains of the realm
Tears of impatience β at wanting At waiting β Iβm no good at that Giving control to the Other at the helm
Tears of ecstasy β pure and simple New experiences, curiosities fulfilled Blurring the line betwixt pleasure and pain
Tears of love β difficult and dynamic Myriad forms, strengths, and consistencies An open heart draws loss, but offers gain
Tears of anything β would be welcome A much needed respite from the cold An indifferent mind, a frozen stare
Tears of silence β when the dam breaks The flood waters will rage unchecked Lying prone, with heart and soul laid bare