Some roads lead nowhere 

But without a sign to tell us otherwise, we will travel down them 

Without hesitation

Until we arrive at the cliff edge, the end of the road 

There is no road ahead that will lead me to safety 

until now 

 

Part of me knew that this is how it ought to be 

Not a raging thunderstorm each night 

Leaving me awake and tearful for the next clap of thunder 

The next flood of rain 

The next strike of light so quick 

that it leaves us both in darkness, before we can even realise what hit us

 

But this isn't a storm 

This is a summer breeze 

Cool and calm and relieving 

Like arriving home after a long day and that first breath escapes 

from a tired body into open, welcoming arms 

home 

 

This is what safe feels like now 

Two arms that hold me when the tremors shake throughout and I am no longer able to control them 

The touch of your palms on my shoulder blades grounds me 

to here and now and all that is good 

All that I prayed for 

 

I would risk it all for this one 

Let the worries dissolve in his salt water sea

Get my hair wet and float back softly 

Dive from the highest places 

Only to drench myself in these lazy waves 

Let my heart beat slow 

There is no risk of drowning here 

 

Some roads lead nowhere 

but after the u-turn 

I finally found myself 

now here