Funeral

How can I want a funeral back?
The hardest day, the day I was dreading.
How can I want a funeral back?
A week ago, I was mentally preparing.
How can I want a funeral back?
To see loved ones in pain, to see tears be shed.
How can I want a funeral back?
Playing scenarios out in my head.
How can I want a funeral back?
The feeling of loss, the depth of despair
How can I want a funeral back?
The pain in my chest as the hearse entered there. 

How can I want a funeral back?
The celebration of the man we loved.
How can I want a funeral back?
Showing him, he was beloved.
How can I want a funeral back?
Being together, my family as one.
How can I want a funeral back?
Just us, those who loved him, not just anyone.
How can I want a funeral back?
Hearing the words of his life and his past.
How can I want a funeral back?
Knowing that he is now at peace at last.