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Time is precious

Heartbraking news 

Deliverd to us all in one day

To be told her cancer will not go-away

Has left our family living in grey

 

Her brain

Her lungs 

The stomach too

Each part of her needs a prayer from you

 

The chemo is just a money making scheme 

The doctors and nurses are not what they seem

 

My mams a person who still has rights

There is help out there 

But you have  to think twice

 

5 rounds of chemo for an incurable disease 

Wasting away

So light she would lift of the ground during a strong breeze 

She's had enough of that horrible chemo

We researched the things we didn't know

To find  a solution that may just help

To then be told to get a grip

They legalized cannibis oil not so long ago

But the sick dying cancer patient had been told no

They backed her into a corner 

The look in there eye was just to warn her

 

You dear Gina are what we need ' you can't run away 

Cancer was not built for speed

Now that your anxious about what to do next 

I'll offer you

What I think is best

 

Chemo!!  See were trying new things and we need a ginni 

Now stop your crying

No time to be silly 

We need u to be a willy nilly

All of these drugs need testing

Once your dead

You can get resting

We don't care '  were paid to lie

Some of us prefer when our patients die

 

Sure it's a natural cause 

Cancer ..

A man made dieses 

To make a big bucks 

 

Not caring about you

No one gives too fucks

 

 

But don't worry mam

I'll be always by your side

Making you giggle during this heartbraking ride 

 

Hold my hand as we dance trew life

Tell me more about your life

Talk about everything that was not ever said

Let's put our past troubles to bed

 

Don't leave me mammy

Not today or next year

I'm not crying and I won't shead a tear

Because your not dead 

You are still here

I love you deeply and I'm sorry your sick

Many days wasted 

And many more to enjoy 

Love from your daughter and her little boys

◄ SORRY

Mind over matter ►

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lisa donohoe

Thu 5th Sep 2019 09:34

It's something I would not wish upon those I have no time for.
Thank you for reading and placing your self in unfamiliar ground in order to understand. Very much appreciated don ❤

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Don Matthews

Thu 5th Sep 2019 09:13

The only people who can fully understand what you went through are those who experienced the same thing. I can only empathize and try to imagine .. Even then I fall way off the mark.

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lisa donohoe

Thu 5th Sep 2019 08:06

Vautaw. Thank you so much for your comment. Its a tough thing to face head on for sure ?
Love and light my friend x

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lisa donohoe

Thu 5th Sep 2019 08:01

It's a thought that has never crossed my mind don ?
But the debt of my poem runs deep. Until you experience similar, you could never understand the raw emotions that hit you harder than a speeding train whom lost it's brakes.
It's a whirlpool of absolute numbness.
Anger is one emoction I felt deeply. I was so angry and heartbroken that I allowed the blame game to win over facts.
At 30 to have one parent left , to then be frightful of loosing another as you witness doctors not wanting to try other forms of medical use , it's just the chemo they want to continuously pump her vains with , you sit and watch them disintegrate rapidly at such speed to hold there hand as they scream crying telling you they can't go trew with another round. You see fear and sadness and the helpless feeling takes over leaving no room for anything eles in your mind other than a new treatment. And as you try and try to help more and more you notice how reluctant the doctors are to even try. ??

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Don Matthews

Thu 5th Sep 2019 04:55

One thing I am so grateful for in life is that cancer has not struck me. It seems to strike people out of nowhere. With no warning. We all live from day to day with this 'possibility' hanging over our heads. One can't worry and let it get us down. We can only empathise and support when needed.

I wonder how many deaths were caused by cancer before we knew all about it?

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victoriavautaw@gmail.com

Thu 5th Sep 2019 00:53

You have captured the heartbreaking effect of of cancer on the family perfectly. ?

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lisa donohoe

Thu 5th Sep 2019 00:16

Hi Don ?
It is indeed. Many thanks

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lisa donohoe

Thu 5th Sep 2019 00:15

Chrystel I am sorry you had to go trew this also. It's one of the hardest things to swallow and accept ❤
Love and light to you x

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Don Matthews

Wed 4th Sep 2019 22:24

I'm assuming it's personal. I feel for you.

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Chrystel Roberts

Wed 4th Sep 2019 21:31

Lysa,

Your poem describes a situation that I have experienced. It brought tears to my eyes.

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