Eye honestly never knew this day would come
But eye once asked God what should be done
When eye was down and blue
And she answered to me
In the voice of you
" I can't hurt you anymore, don't be mad"
Eye can't even believe it, it felt so bad
But baby please know that eye understood
"Jill you gotta go ahead and find you a nigga that will treat you good."
Eye never thought this of you
So sincere and so kind
It honestly blew my mind
For so long eye accepted what we did
As being okay
You would know my flesh for a day
Then be gone for weeks, for months
Even a year
But you would eventually come back
This eye knew very clear
Eye would wait for you on hand and foot
And only one phone call was all it took
My heart in your hands is where eye foolishly placed it
And for a while you humored me and embraced it
But no, not any longer
" I care for you, but I love her"
Your words sent my emotions into a blur
Just like a wild animal running mad
Starving from hunger
It took me so long to realize this is what eye needed
God truely listened to me as eye pleaded
Thank you so much for answering my plea
Thank you so much my love for setting me free
For years my heart and thoughts belonged to you
And for years eye asked myself
"What is it really that eye should do? How do eye release myself?"
But no longer need eye wondered
"Why do I treat you like this?"
Is the question that you began to ponder
Its like a voice whispered to you and said
"Stop hurting her, stop using her my Son."
And so you solemnly declared
"Eye will not hurt you anymore."
My heart you have spared
"Why do you keep coming back to me?"
Is where the conversation strayed
"We can't do this anymore"
And like a dog, eye humbly obeyed
"You have more feelings for me than eye do for you."
It hurt so much that what you said was nothing but truth
When your words left your lips
They tore through my soul
Left my heart feeling faint as if it was
Pierced and staked onto the pole of misfortune
As that remained in my cavity was an empty hole
NOVA CRYING AGAIN
"Do understand that I care for you"
Is what you said again
" I could have continued to play you, or just sent this all through a text."
THANK YOU GOD FOR RELEASING ME
My soul shall no longer be tortured
Thank you so much! This is what eye needed
And now from my soul, eye shall glow with peace
At first eye was flat on my back
But now eye am on my feet
Thank you again for setting me free
Eye am not upset, no longer mislead
Down this evil path, eye will no longer tread
When you set me free
At first eye was stuck
Confused and miscontrued
My heart getting cold me not giving a fuck
Always sad and never in the mood to live
It took a long time for myself to be found
My mind was stubbornly rooted into the ground
As eye kept replaying the sound
Of your sweet, comforting voice
And eye honestly admire your choice
As being a man
And allowing me to understand
And at times, eye still don't know what to do
When for so long all eye wanted to know was you
But now eye just want to be loved for me
For who eye am
And on this Earth
God has placed my man
This eye can now say and understand
But first before anything
Eye must love and respect myself
Let my man place on my finger a wedding ring
Eye will no longer allow myslef to be on the sideline
Or be devestated by the month of nine
With a little you
That will grow and do the things that
You and eye do
No no No
This will not happen, not eye!
Eye will free myself of this sinful thirst
Eye will always and forever put myself first
Eye can admit that my soul was tortured
But, can't you see?
Thank you my first love
For setting me free