I Have Had A Life

 

A new life stirs within me. A small foot making me aware of his existence.
I wait for his fathers return from work,
a favourite meal cooked and ready.
Eyes on the time. I wonder where is he?
When I have cooked a special tea.

 

A strange feeling weighing heavy;
a knock at the door,
Keep it steady.
A greeting with arms outstretched.
Something was wrong I had guessed.

 

Walking slowly to the car we didn't have to travel far.
Dr's faces whispered phrases,
numbness spreading to my heart.

 

Would he make it?
No one knew.
There wasn't much anyone could do.
Time would tell just how bad it would be;
we all had to wait and see.

 

Scans and tests completed.
The Dr said "Please be seated.
His brain is damaged beyond repair, he will never be the same.
He will not be the man you knew,
he may even dislike you."

 

All of this and more was true,
I didn't know just what to do.

 

We tried so hard to get help
he didn't want to hurt me.
So he set me free to live my life,
he didn't want me as his wife.

 

It wasn't easy even then but time moved on,
children to be raised and kept in mind;
Still he was not very kind.

 

After all these years, and a river of salty tears,
I do not feel bitter, sad, or sorry.
All of that has gone.

 

You see I have had a life, and he has had none...

For Bob...
By Taylor Crowshaw  © 2018

Excerpt from.....Shhhh!!!! We Don't Talk About That