Hello depression!

Long time no see, right?

It’s like I just saw you yesterday…

Oh wait. It was just yesterday.

And the day before that,

And the weeks before that….

 

I wake up every morning

With you on my chest.

Making my lungs feel heavy

So heavy, they are.

So heavy that i cannot breathe.

 

I push you away while,

I get ready for school.

Hoping today will be different,

Praying that i won’t get bullied again.

 

Your sister, Anxiety, slithers across my mind

As i leave to catch the bus.

Planting the ‘what if’s’ so deep in my mind

That your brother, Fear, makes himself known.

 

Fear is who makes me sweat.

Fear is who makes me freeze in my tracks

Wondering if i should just go home today.

To try again tomorrow.

 

But no, if i give into you now

I will surely die.

 

I push you all away

As i head to my first class of the day.

I plug in my headphones

Turning the volume on high.

So i don’t have to hear the words

Whispered around me, and about me.

I watch the ground as i walk

To avoid the glares of the haters who hate me.