What Color Do You Feel Like Today?
Today,
I feel like the color Blue.
It seems like every day,
I feel like the color Blue.
You may ask,
how do you know
what Blue feels like?
It's when you're sitting alone
in the Blue room
of your one bedroom apartment
contemplating your whole existence.
Blue is when
you don’t feel good about yourself,
when you don’t
feel like you're enough
even though the button on your backpack
says you are.
It's like feeling the cold winter wind
blow against your skin,
but being too numb
to everything
to even notice or give a shit.
Blue is being too
absent minded
to hear the sweet words
your boyfriend speaks.
It's when you cant' seem to turn
all those thoughts in your mind
OFF.
Blue is not being okay
yet acting like you’re a damn happy fool
like you’re the happiest
you've ever been.
And Blue
won't ever
leave my side.
Cynthia Buell Thomas
Sun 9th Jul 2017 11:45
Look up. The beauty of the sky may lend a whole new slant on 'blue'. The sky really doesn't encourage self-internalisation; and it opens whole new vistas of self-worth.
You have shared deep feelings honestly. 'the button on your backpack' is terrific; shows a real sense of humour about yourself. If you have such self- humour, you can conquer anything. Write a lot.